Hugs, my friend. You are going through that horrible roller coaster emotional ride. There nothing you can do but take it one day at a time. Please be gentle with yourself. You are young, you should really be focusing on your future.

Right now my kids and future is my only concern and focus. It just confused me bc i was doing ok but now...omg im hurting

Yes, what atpeacemary said.

Pray, meditate, stay around supportive positive people, whatever helps and gives you some respite.

Im TRULY scared of my reaction when the court date comes for the divorce. I was told to plan many many outings. The alone and quiet times is what im terrified of

Don't be afraid of the alone and quiet times.

They're just an opportunity to learn about and comfort yourself.

You'll see that you're quite capable of doing it.

Just don't get ahead of yourself and project fear into the future.

Take it one hour at a time.

I was afraid of them too, but now, just try to invade my quiet, me time. I am so jealous of it. "Me Time" is for me and me alone. Love it. You are still at the starting gate, it will take time and a lot of hard work to heal. When you see him, just smile, turn around and walk away. You do not owe him anything. I had nothing when I left him and now I have everything, You are stronger than you think. Hugs

During grief you will get many uncomfortable
Feeling and emotions. The only way to deal with
Grief is thru it, face it, process it and then let it go
When you can.

I Liked going to therapy and divorce care. DC helps
with the grieving and divorce process and being with
Others going thru the same things.

Do you have a lawyer yet? Now is the time to pay
Attention to the financials and co parenting concerns.
It is about yours and your childrens financial future, HUGS

Did you guys go through counseling before the separation and during? Perhaps you are feeling this way if you you guys still have some unsettled feelings/emotions to share with one another. It is a huge step to divorce and it's perfectly normal to feel the way you do. It's not a light decision. I pray you are surrounded with loving and wise friends who can help you navigate the array of emotion you are bound to feel. Group therapy, social meetings, bible study, and journaling activities can help give you an outlet in these times.

Praying for your heart,
Mia