Ended my 25 year marriage last December. I have been doing fine with everything. It wasnt good for many years and Ex always criticizing me so its been nice to come home and not made to feel like a failure. An long time male friend and I developed a connection as things fell apart. He lives about 1000 miles away but we talked on the phone all the time. He came to see me about a month ago and we spent a weekend together. I wasnt expecting anything more than "friends with benefits" and told him that because I thought he might want more. I was surprised to feel an emotional connection and asked if we could explore "something more". He was pretty noncommittal about the whole thing. He still calls often bur its very casual not like the conversations we used to have. I have tried to keep it light but its hard. I have broken down in tears a couple of times on the phone with him - most recently on Thursday when I told him he broke my heart. He asked how he could make it better but I told him he feels what he feels and it hurts. Havent really heard from him since then - he had family visiting this weekend. I think I have cried more about this than the end of my marriage. It brings up all those feelings of not being good enough. My BFF and I are going on vacation next week - coincidentally to the place he lives (our trip has been planned for months). We are all supposed to have dinner and hang out a little but not sure if I can take it.