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I have succeeded to block his number. But now I have a health issue. In fact I have this issue since the break-up before the last one, I went to see a doctor and had some medicaments. Now the medicaments seem not work very well any more.
When I think too much, I will have headache or my stomach will be like turning upside down and I will vomit. There're days I eat so much but it doesn't stop feeling hungry. Somedays I'm so hungry but I can't eat. And when I don't eat, I'll be so tired and can't do anything.
Sometimes, I sleep so much. But sometimes I can't sleep till 2:00 or 3:00 am. And I still wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall back to sleep anymore. I only take pills from the doctor in the weekend unless it'll be hard to wake up in the morning to go to work.
I don't cry much. Just a little a few times.
Today I woke up at 4 am, so hungry but I don't feel like eating. However I forced myself to eat something. Every bite I ate, I just want to throw up. But I still finished the dish because I need to. I live with my parents so my mom always take well care of how I eat. She is totally understanding. She cooks everything I like. But I just don't feeling like eating at all since weeks.
I still take medicaments from the doctor. She too seemed understand what I'm going through. She listened carefully, she explained to me the mechanism between the mentality and the body. But I don't know anymore. The medicaments don't work as well as the last time.
I'm still cooperating with the this treatment by trying to find happiness when being alone, trying to find the independent happiness, learning to love myself, staying with the present... But sometimes, at the downhill of the rollercoaster, I want to hide myself somewhere peaceful, so I forage in my past for a few moments that I was happy: childhood, teenage, college, travel... But the memories seem so blurred and I couldn't find any such moment to hide in there for a while.
Things are so hard. But I don't give up. I don't know what future will bring but I don't want to think about it. I had built dreams for this period of life when I was younger. But now when I reach to this period, my dreams have never ever come true. So I burried them all in the grave of teenage. No. I don't want to build any more dream of future.
I just want to live in the present and the truth.
Thank you for reading these lines.
When I think too much, I will have headache or my stomach will be like turning upside down and I will vomit. There're days I eat so much but it doesn't stop feeling hungry. Somedays I'm so hungry but I can't eat. And when I don't eat, I'll be so tired and can't do anything.
Sometimes, I sleep so much. But sometimes I can't sleep till 2:00 or 3:00 am. And I still wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall back to sleep anymore. I only take pills from the doctor in the weekend unless it'll be hard to wake up in the morning to go to work.
I don't cry much. Just a little a few times.
Today I woke up at 4 am, so hungry but I don't feel like eating. However I forced myself to eat something. Every bite I ate, I just want to throw up. But I still finished the dish because I need to. I live with my parents so my mom always take well care of how I eat. She is totally understanding. She cooks everything I like. But I just don't feeling like eating at all since weeks.
I still take medicaments from the doctor. She too seemed understand what I'm going through. She listened carefully, she explained to me the mechanism between the mentality and the body. But I don't know anymore. The medicaments don't work as well as the last time.
I'm still cooperating with the this treatment by trying to find happiness when being alone, trying to find the independent happiness, learning to love myself, staying with the present... But sometimes, at the downhill of the rollercoaster, I want to hide myself somewhere peaceful, so I forage in my past for a few moments that I was happy: childhood, teenage, college, travel... But the memories seem so blurred and I couldn't find any such moment to hide in there for a while.
Things are so hard. But I don't give up. I don't know what future will bring but I don't want to think about it. I had built dreams for this period of life when I was younger. But now when I reach to this period, my dreams have never ever come true. So I burried them all in the grave of teenage. No. I don't want to build any more dream of future.
I just want to live in the present and the truth.
Thank you for reading these lines.
I would say if it is cus of the breakup, I would stop the meds. If you want to live in the present and with the truth, stop the meds that are trying to mask/concel the truth, deal with each day, emotion and event as it comes at you. You can only build a strong base when you do it on your own, otherwise you are building a structure made of shoddy temporary material that will crumble once it's time has expired.
best wishes
I play tennis as well, but sometimes I'm too tired.
I know the feeling of being alone and it's very tough. I also know that it is hard to learn to love yourself again when you're self-esteem has been shattered. We will get there though someday. Just keep working at it and it will start to get better, just slowly.
Keep trying your best at everything you do. Take it slow. Just live day to day if you have to. That's what I have been doing. I get nervous if I look too far into the future. Keep the faith my friend and best wishes to you. :)
in the military, to train troops for prolonged stresses of war, leaders forced their men and women to exercise extensively and regularly. that built up their endurance and stamina. very smart to do for us too.