So my 7 year relationship was over and I was able to finally move on. I changed a lot, made myself better in my eyes and was able to get back on track --- and then gave it another shot. I fell in love with a a new guy. It was whirlwind at first then we started going out and things were going great --- then now he don't call the much, doesn't reply to my emails or texts which I send once a week just to catch up. Then for some reason, i realized I've been in this situation before and I can't live with this. I can't be a doormat and an option for someone. Just as when you are ready to give it another try, you find yourself in that old familiar place of being neglected and being left behind. And we all know what it means. This really breaks my heart.

I am not sure if it's me...if I am still hung up from the past and just waiting for this new one to screw up too? I wanted a fresh start...it just ends up the same :( I'm losing my belief in love, actually. Maybe I am just wasting my time being optimistic giving it a try.