So i just had a pretty severe breakup.  i mean it was like, nuclear fall out, all the walls came down, everything turned to ash, and yet...as i said when i entered it, it really has ended being the first one i've ever walked away from as a better man than i was when i walked in.  I've been single a very long time, effectively 8 years, and let someone in, bc she was so unique.  So beautiful and yet so insanely intelligent and witty and charming and just real.  I'd never known anything like it, id known them all separately, but never in one package.  this girl, she, truly was/is spectacular.   And yes, she accused of me something i did not do, i believe she subconsciously wanted to ruin the relationship because she was reluctant to have one after recently being hurt.  When it got serious real fast, (the day i recorded her a love song i wrote) is the day she came out swinging at me with false accusations.

and i cannot stand a lie.  i will not tolerate a lie, and to be accused of telling a lie after all the damage they have done in my life, i reallllllly didnt appreciate it.  and i almost immediately went either bi-polar or disassociative or something, bc my reaction (not physical) was one that would be hard to come back from, and now....it's dust.  now it's nothing but a pile of ashes

so again, i ask everyone, please take your meds properly, do your therapy,don't allow a broken brain to take away everything from you, bc it will.  and even the person who swore up and down that she found your broken brain intriguing and interesting and one of the most fascinating things in the world,....she will run when she sees what broken really looks like.

I will shut up now.