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fresh break up....idk what to do.

kstay
kstay

this is our hundreth ti,e breaking up it seems like. I am tired of the back and forth and feel like he loves me but he is so selfish and its tearing us apart. he has cheated in the past and say it is different now but then there was a situation of him keeping in contact with the person. he said it was a good reason and not to sleep with this person or anything. I feel like a prisoner in my own feelings and always thinking so much about staying or leaving. I cry so much because I am tired of the same situations with different people and I am completely drained. I dont know what ive done to deserve this and im over trying to figure out why. I just want to be with someone I can trust and loves me and wont cheat on me. I dont want to become what ive been through and treat anyone as badly as ive been treated. I care deeply about him but he is so selfish so often and it seems like i do so much and get a half of inch from him. and it goes back to square one in a day after weeks of trying. ive tried leaving for days,weeks and months even. we get back together and it is good for a short period then back to the nonsense while i remain loyal and try so hard.

RockNMetalChic
RockNMetalChic
I feel like we r living this same situation ,it's extremely hard ,I can't tell u what to do and u have to decide what it is u want to do ,but I can support u and be here for u and know that u are worth so much more than this, u deserve all the love u have given out to be returned and u shouldn't ever have to wonder if someone loves u or when things r going to go bad and I will break up again ,know cause I've felt this exact thing, recently wrote mine a 3 subject notebook about how much I love him and since then it's like I have a contagious disease ,he won't even message me online ,but continues to read everything I send ,I'm so confused and frustrated and hurt and feel worthless ,if u need someone to vent to I'm here
kstay
kstay
Thank you so much. I really appreciate that more than you know. I am glad to have someone relate to my situation and wont judge me. I always feelmlike im being judged when I talk to my friends about it. your mind is telling you one thing but your heart wont listen. I struggle with this so much. I will be here for you as well and if you need to vent, doesn't matter the time of the day..please feel free to do so. If I am not on here, I will reply as soon as I see it. I feel like, The people know what they want but are scared of letting their guard down. if he reads your messages then clearly he wants to know what youre saying. if he wants to know what youre saying, then he cares. but why not respond, give me something. so sorry your heart has to endure this pain and confusion. but things only get better...so they say,right?
RockNMetalChic
RockNMetalChic
Thank you, once again today I reached out, I told him how much he hurt me with this silence,but I couldn't leave it at that I screamed I love u and told him I was there and to just talk to me,once again he read everything and no response ,hope ur situation is going better than mine u can always write me on here anytime as well been working a lot of overtime to try and not focus on this ,only almost broke down 4 times today, goodness that sounds so pathetic, but I can't help it ,my sis says to just block him out and move on,but my heart says no.....so been up listening to Olly Murs to try and cheer up ,doesn't help his song Excuses makes me think of my situation more .....but u know something has got to get better..... even though my life never does....
KimmyO
KimmyO
Yea, it really sucks to love some one sacrificially who is selfish! Quit trying so hard, be busy for yourself. Do things for you, things you want to do. Don't be a doormat, instead keep improving you, so that either way you haven't lost yourself, trying to please him. You can't change him, but Maybe some tough love might change your relationship, People treat you how you let them. Be strong, do new things, go on w your life, that way either way, you are who you want to be. He is probably still cheating, just making better excuses. It is your choice, your life. You are strong, and worth being treated right. I know, love binds us. But he has left you, cheated on you, and as long as you put up with it, it will continue. Something that will help you physically while in the midst of this is this: taking magnesium (magnesium malate is best) and ginseng helped me a lot w both, they calm the mind body and spirit and get rid of sticky negative thoughts the loop around in the mind. Also, getting outside, laying on the grass to get grounded and breathe in fresh air, looking at stars, these things help a lot too. Our environment help or hurt our mental health and physical health. Speak aloud positive truths to counteract the negative thoughts and things said to us. Also, Volunteering helps us get our of our own misery to help others, which helps us. Call those negatives a lie and correct them to yourself. Protect yourself from those who put that added stress on you and go out and do new challenging things. You will be ok, you are strong.