So the last post i did i was seemingly overwhelmed with everything that is seeming to fall around me and realizing that i was scared mainly because financial issues of how am i going to be able to pay for an attorney and getting my divorce. With that thought I could feel that pressure on my body and mind. Being the only person from my family living in a completely different state with out the hugs and feeling of seeing my parents had been wearing me thin. Today is an old feeling yet completely new, my first appointment with a lawyer. I'm scared i wont be able to afford and still betrying everything i can to get my divorce. I'm scared that i'm going to be stuck longer with a lastname that seems to have no meaning in my life, or really love behind it. I'm praying for a miracle to give me that strenght to get through this and not feel that empty void that had plagued my heart and mind. I know this meetting wont be that miracle but I pray that it will the the stepping stone to a better life for me and the future I can be happy and loved for. So I guess I'm asking everyone to pray for me and give me strength that i can make it and that the light at the end of the tunnel will be there for me.