First post. Where to start. I was engaged to a guy I truly lived. We got along great but we had similar issues. We were together for 8 years and lived together most of those years. I was much older (still am) and we decided to try to get pregnant when I was 42. The next month it happened. 4 months later I miscarried. It was one of the worst days of my life with months of the same to follow. Then to find out I was a carrier of a genetic issue and that one of the side effects of this issue was ovarian failure. My chances of getting pregnant again were slim to none. My ex was adopted and I knew he wanted his own children and this compounded my depression. As much as he said it didn’t matter I knew deep down it did. He pushed for us to get married the following year and I loved him so much and wanted to but something was stopping me. I slid down the rabbit hole quickly. He joined. We broke up about 2 years later. It was awful and it’s been 2 years since. I had to completely shut him off to survive. To breathe. I changed my number and moved. A little after a year his new Facebook popped up on mine and we chatted a bit for a day or two but I had to shut that down also. Getting to the point of why I’m in such a bad way at this moment ... I just found out his new girlfriend is 3 months pregnant and they are engaged. It is killing me in so many ways I can’t even pick what is the worst part. Gone are the days are breaking up and just wondering what is going on. Thanks social media!! I knew it would happen I just didn’t think this quickly.