I don't think you told me the truth.
You got mad because I lied, but I apologized repeatedly for 6 months. You played with my head, and all I ever wanted was to spend time with you Ren.You always had excuses why you couldn't. You made time before. Then I moved up because I wanted us to work...I didn't want long distance anymore. You'd never spend the night, and your job was 10 minutes away. You broke my heart worse than anyone. How could I mean so little after 2 years? When I needed you the most you turned your back on me. You wanted revenge, and I paid by becoming homeless, having a breakdown and was hospitalized, flooding everything. It was beyond spite. It was cruel and vindictive. Instead of talking and going to counseling..you threw me away. Who does that? You knew I was severely depressed and you did nothing to help me. You suffer from depression too...but had no compassion for me.
How honest were you with me as I randomly bright you flowers, and treated you like a princess.you were supposed to be my soul mate and my best friend. What happened?
Why was I disposable? Why did you go out of your way to hurt me? I barely eat. I'm afraid I'll have another breakdown...and won't make it back this time. I needed you. I didn't need you to fix me while I worked on myself...just love me.
Instead now...I'm broken. You betrayed me too.
You acted like my actions hurt you, only I think you kept secrets from me too.instead of talking you point fingers and judge me more than anyone on earth. I needed you.instead you threw me away like trash, instead of trying to get me help. Trying to make me become a better man and heal. It can't be all my fault. A relationship is 2 people, willing to fight for each other. Instead you told me that was a warped fairy tale. I just wanted to be loved by you forever. You let them destroy me, and I was already having a breakdown..what did you think was going to happen?where you hoping I would kill myself? Would that have cleared your conscience??