Hugs, are you seeing a therapist or counsellor. I went through the same thing, Divorce at 57. But now 12 years later, I am relaxing in my own place. One day at a time, sometimes even one hour at a time.

Hello heavy,

This is so helpful for you to be here and writing your thoughts. However, your brain has to rest. I notice that you've written in at least three posts here at this support group. And it is great that you are seeking inspirational ideas to strengthen the horrible pathways of emotional separation. Yet no positive changes will occur until you address the problem with sleeping. Introducing your valid issues is very important and I want that you heal; it's just that your thoughts are in an army base of stories and this is developing into an overlay of neurological impulse issues, which challenge your thinking skills. I am really concerned about you.

I agree with Atpeacemary, you must take this matter in stages of one day at a time. Please get professional guidance. The issues that stress you are challenging your brain and emotions to think over time. At this rate, nothing any person can tell you will meet with the clarity of words. Your thoughts are literally disabled. And this is something that only a professional can help you with at the moment. I'm so sorry that you are hurting so deeply. Please get to feeling better and perhaps peers here at this support network can join in with your active needs and offer additional help. Get in therapy and come back to "catch-up" with friends here to support you. Dealing with raw anger and hurt feelings take constructed efforts, so give yourself the space necessary to deal with your emotions; don't rush it. Bless you!

Hello Remiah,

Thank you for the encouraging words. I do see my therapist once a week, I have a lawyer which is depleting my small account, these circumstances are difficult, I had no choice but to leave as he hurt me and I have had to rebuild on my own. My daughter and I left with just the clothes on our back. Since then I have heard that he has gotten rid of my things and had found someone else...he has even changed his hair. All this is draining me and I’ve gotten use to the not sleeping. I try to take each day by and hour by hour. I am trying :(

...you are welcome to encouraging words :-)

I'm pleased that you are putting an effort into building your life up. And financial difficulties with the lawyer is noisy to the nerves; I totally understand it!

I did read through all of your current posts. I am sad about your struggles as well. :( You tell that you left right away with your daughter beside you and with no choice. Could it be that the law could have protected you from leaving on that day? Because relatively you have a right to protect yourself at all times. It appears that this other person is in the dark gloom of a personality problem. I don't see an issue with changing hair and such, yet he may have a feeble hold upon reality. And him trying to refresh himself with dumb personal lusts is a childish motivation. Hurting you is the foreground of his thoughts right now. I am disappointed that this is depressing you in spirits and then further agitating your soul. I can't deal with the thought of what your daughter and other children feel emotionally under the circumstances of the matters on hand. My best to you, and stay faithful in prayer. I groan for you...sincere prayers help though. Hugs!

Unfortunately the law nor other services were able to help which made me feel more humiliated...he was able to get away with what he did to me in front of my daughter. I am trying to build a thick skin and be strong, just taking it day by day.

Unfortunately the law nor other services were able to help. This humiliated me even more as I feel that I wasn’t believed even though I had very obvious injuries and my daughter as well. My lawyers I had two are great but with that comes a price. I am trying to build myself up and be strong for my daughter. I have been discouraged and stopped praying... just feeling helpless:(.

It is hard to have faith while dealing with distress; your soul is troubled. At most, you are thinking of your daughter and this way is best. And I don't see you as pushing God away from helping you either. If you've prayed before, then you are a believer. No matter what distractions try to lure you off track, God is always there for you in times of need. As you are thinking in the best interest of your daughter, then only God can guide you and her to something stronger and greater than yourselves. I get it that your feelings are helpless yet pour out your complaints before the Lord. You don't have to pull yourself together before facing God in prayer; He understands your weaknesses.