I have nothing to offer you other than to say time is your friend. Take loving care of yourself for a change.

I totally understand. I have been feeling the same way. I am fighting depression with therapy, prayers, reading and listening to sermons scripture and meditating. I also consult with a few friends, log into here to express myself and try to think differently when thoughts and memories enter my head. I am praying for you. Please know isolation isn't good. Your thoughts can and will run wild and drive u crazy. Don't give him that power.

I agree with Pete. I would only add that clarity is very helpful as well. Not only clarity for who your SO really is, but clarity on the world around us.

I was brought up in a bubble and used to think that people really just didn't treat others badly. But the treatment we have received from our SOs is common place. Selfishness and low regard for others is happening all the time. So, believe me when I tell you, IT ISN'T YOU with the issue, it's your SO. You are not alone.

Hang in there, I promise, it does get better.

Elizabeth is right. Some people just suck. It's never good to just hold it all in. I heard that it takes about half as long as the relationship was to get over someone. So I get it, I still have a couple months left. But I promise you it does get better. I totally get where your coming from. When things went sideways for me I couldn't believe that she was doing that to me. Even after she had been telling me that she loved me and would never hurt me. Like I said people just suck sometimes. And they just selfishly crash their way through others lives and it's not fair. But try not to let your depression control you because if you do your essentially giving him power over your life, which he doesn't deserve. It's a daily struggle for me too. Your not alone were all going through it, so just hang in there for a little longer.

I forgot to mention, maybe try exercising. If you hate going to the gym try a sport. I hate the gym so t took up Judo and it has helped me immensely getting over her. I don't think that I'd be doing as well as I have been without it. Like I said earlier I have my moments but now I can replace her with something positive that builds my confidence. And as a side benefit you'll be in great shape. But seriously try to find something you can replace him with. My life used to revolve around my ex and trying to make her happy, now it revolves around Judo and getting ready for my next fight.