So I'm in this relationship/ friendship that's been going on for about 8yrs, most of those years I thought were good, I was coming from dealing with newly diagnosed positive and I didn't think I'd have anyone outside of family and close friends to love me, Mo shows up in one of my infamous videogame tournaments and magic Happened,  about Two weeks after the tournament I invite him over for dinner and of course Street Fighter EX3 LoL, we laid across the side of the bed and while playing the game this energy came from out of nowhere we looked at each other and that was our first kiss, I didn't know he had the capability to become this cruel inhuman that didn't care for anyone other than himself, but just perhaps I didn't wanna see it, so recently as in a few days ago he informed me he was never comfortable with our relationship and only did intimate things with me to make me happy and now he isn't willing to go there anymore. I'm all for standing in ones truth and never settling but this here came out if left field and has bruised my heart in a way I didn't think I could ever feel, I know tomorrow is a brand new day and sooner than later I'll be fine, but the person I've trusted with my heart body and space soiled it and as I write I still don't know how to just walk away. I believe in karma but I wish no harm wouldn't matter anyway you can't hurt someone who has no feelings, So tomorrow/ later today I begin something new and different and trust Better was waiting for me to free myself in order to gift me in wondrous ways.. Thank You God for this Blessing ,I surrender All