After 10 days of no contact with my ex I broke down and sent him a few text messages.  End result - not great.  I understand why people really tout this NC rule, and of course I thought I would be fine, I would be different.  I had to do something that triggered some big "missing him" feelings.  I go into detail of our breakup in my previous post, and it ended on good terms, but I hadn't fully accepted that our relationship was over.  I have since been trying to work through that and felt a no contact rule should be put in place.  I was feeling sad and vurnable and decided to reach out, just to say hello.  We exchanged a few messages and he wondered when he was going to hear from me again.  Later that evening, while I was out with some friends, he texted me again telling me about the dinner he was having and asked if I wanted to see a movie this weekend.  I explained I would love to see him but I need space.  He apologized for asking and said he understood.  The next day (today) I reached out to update him on something and he asked how I was doing and told me he would always support me.  He again asked if we could bump into each other during errands and again I told him I want to be friends, but I need more time.  

This was then followed with me crying, and having a terribly emotional day.  yep... guess that's the reason people swear by no contact.  Big step back today and I miss him terribly.  I of course want to see him - I WON'T.  I felt like I was feeling a little better and now I'm back into this emotional mess.  Just really struggling today.  :(