I laid in my room.. last night was horrible. She was not here.. first time in three years. The pain was immense.. the heart hurt. How could I go on. This was a year ago. 

today.. I am seeing, I am free. Free. I was in a dream, a story of a relationship, holding it up, carrying it, fixing it etc. over and over. I spent my days.. trying to fix things or get the relationship to some place. 

Relationships are not about love, nor getting to a happy place. They are about finding your true love of you. And when they end, you awake from the dream. The heart hurst becaues you are stretching love out to another.. when the whole time the love was YOU. 

These are my findings in the past year. 

Divorce is a huge spiritual awakening to your self. You are no longer couple, a story, its a free opeing, its also a death of a story and very painful. But the pain does one thing.. it stops you to turn inward to how boundless and amazing you are....

Hope this helps some of you that are going thru this.. ive been there.. trust me. 

Michael.