So today is my birthday, the first person to wish me a happy bday was my ex (unexpected) and i wasn't sure if i should answer him or not, so i decided to just say "thank u", he texted me back to ask me to call him, i thought about it before i did and decided texting would be better, so i asked what it was about, he said about Sprint i said what about it, i thought we took care of that, so he said can u please call me it's to much to text, i called him (1st mistake), he was telling me the problem, after a while of talking about it and what still had to be done, he started getting an attitude because i wouldn't do his part to finish transferring the phones to his name, i told him i did my part and he started getting an attitude with me because i wouldn't help him, made it seem like i owed it to him to help him, so we argued, i told him he never changes, so he hung up on me. He calls me back with a different attitude, much nicer, said he spoke to someone to help him, then he says to me you still at work? i said it's only 2:30 why wouldn't i be, he says i thought u would have plans for your bday, i said no plans, so he says to me would you like to have plans, i said what are you talking about, he said would you like to do something for your bday?  I thought he was going to ask me to go for a drink or dinner, but no he went straight to his intentions, he asks me if i want to go somewhere to be alone for a few hours cause he had to be at work at 7. I said to him why would i do that, you don't want to be with me but you want me to have sex with you, i said how can you treat me this way, this is the 2nd time you did this to me, what makes you think i'm that way, that's all i am to you, all i have ever been to you, he went on to apologizing, that i meant more to him than that, that he misses me, i said you only miss one thing about me, he said no that's not true, blah blah blah...when i left work i was so emotional i couldn't stop crying, thinking should i have went maybe we couldv'e talked and possibly fix things, maybe seeing me he would realize how much he misses me, so i texted him, telling him: there was no place on this earth i would have rather been today and everyday then in his arms again, but not like this, and him asking just sent me back to square one and how much i struggle everyday to move on and to forget him and talking to him makes it harder and being friends is not an option for me. he answers me back:"i understand"  that's it, that's all he had to say, i mean i don't what i expected him to say but that's it?

I know how stupid it was of me to say those things to him making me look like a weak woman, but i couldn't stop myself this time, all last night i couldn't sleep, i was up at 2:30 crying non stop, i been feeling so down this morning and then this happens and i'm even worse now can't stop crying and i know i deserve it for agreeing to call him in the first place.

Sorry so long and thanks for listening!!