To all out there that are just starting a journey, you are Blessed.
I know how weird that sounds. Pain and loss.
I remember it so well. It can be addictive. Feeling like you are floating or not really part of this world.
But know its a blessing. It took me forever to know what was happening to me.
I could'nt breathe, I worked in a daze. Nothing felt real.
But this is a time of spiritual learning, when you are in this place you can learn like never before.
I wasted so much time, people all around me watched as I self distructed. It was not pretty.
I know missing that person to the point of pain.
When we learn to respect ourselves and really have a good look back we know that they were not the one.
We worked so hard to make it work, we lost ourselves.
Look back and you will know that in so many ways we may have been better for them than they were for us.
Own it and grow I say.
When we finally let go we can focus on ourselves, what are we in need of?
Most of what we need is right there inside us.
How can anyone possible love you enough to take care of all your needs?
As it has been said we cannot be good for someone else until we are good for us.
I took to long to really understand some of the concepts behind healing.
Be kind to yourself and give yourself a break.......
While we are looking for the right one hopefully we notice all the warning signs, that we have now learned from this experience.
I have learned what truely helps me to be happy... ( Peace )
I spent so much time trying to make sure life was good for others I forgot about me.
I have become more self centered just enough to know when to walk away and know I will never be alone.
I have family and friends. I date a little and enjoy the company of women......but when it does not turn into something: know the right one is out there, I'll probable trip over her and go...well there ya are!
Please spend as little time in 2018 in pain as possible.
Go ahead and spoil yourself.
anticipating a lonely saturday... sighCancelled plans because of my anxiety, but I dont know what I will do tomorrow now. I had reasons for cancelling those plans, but at the same I just cant help feel alone.well, atleast I wont feel alone around other people, I think thats one of the worst feelings, being surrounded by people and yet still feel alone. Anyone ever feel that way?