Breakups & Divorce Support Group

Just broke up with someone or in the midst of a difficult divorce? Breaking up is difficult no matter what the circumstances are. They say that time heals all wounds, but sometimes a listening ear or a hug can work wonders for the heart. Whether you need a place to vent, someone to hold you to No Contact, or need advice about what to do, we're here to help.

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lostalongtheway 12/06/2016

I am learning there is so many things people tell you during a separation. How they think your gonna feel, what to do next, what not to do. I’m learning no matter how many people warned me, I could never really know the hell that was about to become my life. The ups, the downs, the anger, resentment. What it feels like to drown without ever touching water. How it feels to wake up in the middle of the night unable to breath. How truly crappy it feels in the morning when I suddenly remember it wasn’t a dream. How as a parent I never get to fully break. Life doesn’t get to stop. There is still homework, bath time, dinner, lunch and breakfast. There are these little people I feel you have to protect so I find myself crying behind closed doors. Breaking down in the bathroom so they don’t know how truly fucked I am. While the other party gets to live it up. They never told me how much of a failure I was going to feel like. Even when its not my fault. How it feels to walk around feeling like everyone knows. Feeling like everyone is judging me. Knowing eventually they will. Trying to figure out how to tell people without seeing that shitty look of pity. Do I tell them the truth? Do I fight the instinct to protect the person I have spent half my life protecting? They did’t tell me that every so often I may feel okay, only it will never last. Its simply a roller coaster ride and its only a matter of time till I fall again. A ride that I can’t get off of. It’s a hell I walk threw all alone and no one can save me. So I just endure. I unpack my bags in the midst of despair and except this is what I get to wake up to. This is my life now. The flashes of happy memories that used to bring me comfort now become the nightmares that haunt me. The memory of what was once happiness become chains of torment. As I sit here I understand why they never told me. Instead they tell me to pray. The truth is I'm far to busy cursing god to pray. Too lost within the darkness to begin to see even a glimmer of light. In the end I only hope I’m not the only one who feels this lost. This alone. This damaged.

Sky31walker 12/06/2016

I just joined so I could share my own struggle of my wife leaving, being separated and the pain I'm enduring as I hold on to my faith to restore my marriage. However, I read this first and felt compelled to respond. I went though a lot of the emotions and thoughts you are experiencing. I just simply wanted to answer you, you are not alone. If you need someone to talk to, I would love to be that person. I'm available 24/7, I don't sleep much these days. My personal email is Jtyree31@gmail.com, my number is 7857279462.

basnime 12/07/2016

You are never alone. There are some great people on this site who will help you. I know your pain, I mean I know your pain. I could get no comfort from anyone about the pain of seperation. It hurts so bad. I had to swallow a lump just to type that. Please reach out to us. You've shared your feelings so well. Don't curse God. He says he will never leave us. Thank God for the morning. For the sun, for the health of your children. God is still so very good.

Koko 12/07/2016

I am right there with you. Broke down last night trying to figure out my son's homework. I guess I have not mastered controlling my emotions yet. But I feel your pain, sadness, anger. I'm not a religious person so I don't know much about prayers. But I believe that you can make it through. 50% of the population is divorced right? Everyone tells me that I will be stronger once I get through this. You will too. But let it out. Keep posting. Keep crying.

LostRose 12/07/2016

You are not the only one who feels this, who rides this ride, and who looks for anything to soften the blows of this new truth. The truth is if you can love like that you deserve to be loved like that. I set staring hopelessly at my phone for a call or a text that may never come. I hear people talk of things about me but I am not included in the conversation. I see strangers look at me with anger over the way I hurt my wife. I find out that she vents to every one of my hang ups, but me. To me she says nothing. She makes me out to be the worst person alive to people we don't even know. I carry this weight of pain with no one to turn to because I am far too bad of a person to need a friend. I have done everything I can for my wife. I spoiled her. I loved her endlessly. I had a bad fall out with myself. I thought she would be better off without me. Funny thing though I asked her if she wanted me to leave and she agreed that I should leave. How quickly she could let go. She said forever. She was right. She will haunt me forever. I feel everything you have said. You are not alone. Liers of the worst kind are the ones who make you believe they will always want you and love you just to throw you away with no sympathy. It is like a game to them I suppose. Too bad we didn't know we were playing until we lost.

Staystrong207 12/07/2016

You are far from alone. I go through the same emotions. It's a roller coaster ride of emotions. Some days are good, some okay, and some I just want to stay home so I can cry all day. Sometimes I'm angry. All I can think about is when will things get better. I'm trying to follow the advice of others on here and focus on myself and not focus on my husband. We shouldn't give the one that hurt us so much of our energy. I know it's easier said then done though.

I am grateful that I am getting much better sleep now. In the beginning it was awful. I was waking up every hour crying and calling my husband asking "how could he do this to me". Everything that we are all going through hurts and the pain feels endless.

Today I chose to be happy. I didn't cry or feel any anxiety today but don't now how I will feel tomorrow. We all have to take it one day at a time.

lostalongtheway 12/08/2016

Thank you everyone. KoKo I really get the random breakdown thing. Cried in the store after I realized I put my husbands favorite cookies in the cart without thinking. I put husband.... EX? maybe ex? Don't know what to call the man I spent half my life with now. What do you call someone in a separation? Lostrose NO ONE is too "bad of a person" to need a friend. Staystrong207 thank you. Knowing I'm not completely alone helps.

JewelB 12/08/2016

No, you are not the only one that feels that alone. I always thought he would be there, and now he's gone and move on with his life. Told me to move on with mine. I have stopped crying everyday but my face tells how I really feel. I don't have an appetite, should be headed to the gym. Can barely bring myself to get out the bed sooooo yeah, I know how you feel. You can always give me a call, my sleeping is way off. jewelbly@hotmail.com or 7185064600. Hang in there, it is going to get better love.

milagros 12/08/2016

@ LostRose
So what happened in your case, did you cheat?? Are the things your wife says to other people not true?

milagros 12/08/2016

@lostalongtheway
Do you have any private contact info?

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