Hi All. I thought that I'd met the man of my dreams, but I guess not. A few weeks ago I told him that it bothered me that he would tell me he was going to call and I'd not hear from him. Well he did it a couple of times after that, yet nothing in our conversations indicated any other problems. Anyhow, I didn't hear from him for a few days, so in a panic, I left several messages on his home phone and on his cell phone and I even tried to IM him. I got really scared. Finally, I got an e mail from him stating that he was out of state at a family funeral and that he'd talk to me when he got back home. That day came and went and I've not heard back from him. I realize now that perhaps I should not have sounded so insecure and that my abandoment issues may be much worse than I thought. All of my defenses were down with this man and I never saw this coming. I'm still spinning from the shock. I am not an awful person and I don't believe that I deserved what he did to me. I've tried to contact him to explain that not keeping his word bought out these insecurities, and now that I recognize that I have a problem that I'm willing to address it. He still won't return my call. I know that I can't make him, but I'm blown away by the fact we connected so well prior to this and that he knew about my past. Does this man not realize that everyone has past history and a person can only address issues that they are aware of. I appologized for my behavior yet he won't talk to me. In a sense, I'm grateful that this happened because it pointed to a problem that I was not completely aware of, on the other hand I'm upset with him because he rejected me because of my insecurity.
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