I feel the exact same way...100%. Let's hope there is happiness on the other side.

Fill the same way. I believe my ex is narcissistic and tried to control my boys that they could not stand him anymore. I loved him so much. Hard to move on after two failed marriages. Good luck to us all.

It's hard. I have found therapy and my divorce group is helping me. It's hard not to feel that way but we can work and improve ourselves. I don't think we can do that alone. That's why I seeked out help. I'm getting a better understanding to why and what went wrong. I do not want to repeat the same mistakes again and will hopefully be able to spot the narcissistic traits in people so I can avoid them.

We are only in our 40's. Lots of life hopefully ahead. I don't want to dwell on the past. I can't change it. Nor can I control the future...that's out of my hands to. I can only focus on today, and today I focus on myself...to improve myself through reading, eating right and exercising. I'm learning to take control of my life after years of her abuse.

Let's all focus, stay strong and work hard on ourselves. What we do today can make tomorrow better :)
-HUGS-

I spent 14 years with my kids father and we didn't even get married but the last two years we were and then when I got sick and I couldn't walk he left me! Im alone and in a wheelchair with 4 kids which my youngest is autistic... And to make matters worse he stopped coming to see our children and he had started dating some girl online during our relationship! And he has moved in with her and everything! But now he has started to come back around to see the kids and is telling me that he still lovers me and only me! And I love him so much I just hate it! I know he has treated me horribly but I still wish I could fix my family! But he doesn't want to come back home! So I just pray to God for strength every day sometimes on the hour to make me strong enough for whatever it is that's going to come! But long story short I am 33 this year I have birthed 5 kids we lost a son and I got my tubes tied because we said we were done# and bow I can't walk and my body is in constant pain! And I have a special needs child that's only 6... So I do now feel like what do i have to offer any man now either? I feel like he has ruined me and left me with scraps...And I already had trouble trusting people in my life he was the only person I ever managed to trust and feel loved by and then now he has done the unthinkable to me! And I just can't believe it! Love is so hard and people can make it painful so I just stay prayerful so my suggestion is that you stay in prayer too... You do still have a good job and good health and that's a lot to offer someone! Stay positive!

I too have similar days. Your a good person and know that your ability to care and love your boys is a wonderful thing. Don't give up! Stay positive and trust in God.

Very encouraging rip_my_heartout

Thank you very much for responding and sharing your stories. Loyal 100, your husband makes mine seem not so bad. You're all fabulous for taking the time out to reassure and support a stranger. I'm trying to be positive but the burden of failure is heavy right now. Love & laughing one day soon to you all xx