Because, it does hurt, because we are lonely, but you know what??? You are not alone, there are a lot of us out here in the same place. Sorry, some days just suck.

So know how ya feel. I get that way too at night. It's just something ycuky we have to go through, and it sucks...a lot. Lots of hugs to you!

(((((((((((Kevin)))))))) I am SO sorry that you are going through this. I understand what you're saying. Night time & mornings are the worst for me. You're used to having someone there & now they aren't. It sucks, I know. Unfortunately, it's all part of the healing process. You will get through this & will get easier each day, I PROMISE!~! "Keep Your Chin Up!~!" I'm here if you need to talk.

Must be loney day today. Feeling that way too.

It just stinks, I know! You go over and over the situation in your mind until you think you just can't stand it anymore. But one day you will wake up and it won't be as bad as it was the day before. And every day it will get better until you are okay again.

I am sorry. Hang in there. We are all here for you.

What the heck did we do before the internet? Seriously... here we are on this GREAT board (which I am addicted to like so many others, I NEED this place), here we are total strangers, yet of the same community because someone we loved HURT us so badly.
Isn't it strange that people we have never met care MORE now about us, than the person we wed "for better or for worse" (yeah right).
Life is strange. But yet, this board with all these wonderful people... yes, some people ARE wonderful. YOU folks are.

It's because that's what we have to go through for a bit...no rhyme or reason to it....it sucks but i does get better....i promise....wish i could reach out and give you a real hug right now!!! guess a cyber one will have to do...HHHHHHUUUUGGGGGGG!!!!!

We get so used to having someone around that we forget that once upon a time we liked ourselves and our own company. We did things that made "ourselves" happy not what made "us" happy.
I am starting to remember and do what used to make "me" happy not "me and the ex" and it's starting to feel good.

I hear ya, Kevin - which is why I don't sleep anymore.

But I do not recommend that. Drives you mental. And your mind is probably overwhelmed as it is right now.

Nights are terrbile because the lonliness creeps in - we miss having someone there for the end of day routines, to sleep by them, yadda, yadda, yadda...

But you need your sleep otherwise your body will start to shut down. Get some sleep medication. Or, if you are broke like me, then 4 words: "TRIPLE DOSE NEO CITRAN".

I feel the same way, I get so much attention at work all day and come home everynight to sit here alone.But that is better than being with the stbx.