Last night my boss, who is a real good friend of mine, sent me a text and said that he set me up with his neighbor. I thought he was joking. He kept saying that this guy will treat me right and was a real good guy. Told me to dump my baggage (the guy I am still pining for) and start dating his neighbor. I totally freaked out and started hysterically crying!!! The man that I am still in love with broke up with me in April and the last time I spoke to or saw him was June 28. I know that he is the one I want to be with and have been told that I will eventually end up with him once he gets his head out of his ass. I'm not waiting around for him but I really am not "feeling it" when it comes to dating anyone right now. I have things that I am working thru and need to re-discover who I am these days. Went out on 2 dates that were a disaster and just don't want to go down that path and get all frustrated again. Went on the local Craig's List and was totally disgusted by all the guys wanting secret sex partners or a weekend bang once in a while. There were others that wanted to "control you and you be subservient to THEIR needs and fantasies. WTF!!!! Hope they are limber and can reach their own privates for some "special pleasures"!!! That is just utterly disgusting and degrading!!!
Anyway- am I wrong to feel scared and not really want to go out with anyone? Did i overreact? My boss is upset with me about that now and we really aren't talking today. At least i'm not. I'm totally hurt. Again- I do understand that he was only trying to help! Any advice?