Read all the posts in this blog. They will help you my friend.
I also left you a little note in my last journal entry. and a message.
I love you my friend. Stay strong.

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I am sorry you are hurting so much.
It isn't fair
I feel your pain and tears

I send you a big hug and share our hurts together

Same feeling here. Wish i had some comforting words for you. One thing i can say is your not alone (hugs). Its gotta get better.

prayers are with you.....I wish you the best and pray for strength and courage for you.

Its like you just wrote exactly what I am feeling. All I can say is... I understand. Last night I had a long chat with my Aunt and we discussed a person we both know that is 53 and dying with terminal cancer, he is a sweet guy, and its unfair. What I realized during the conversation is although divorce is horrible and cancer is horrible... its the whole not having control thats tough,,. with divorce you are the one thats left to deal with the rejection, fear, loneliness, etc. With disease.. too bad NOTHING you can do.. although I am feeling as low as I can be... OMG thank god its only divorce. Please feel better!!

Needafriend, you cant logic your heart. Your heart loves/loved him, deeply, even though he didn't deserve it. The fact that he didn't deserve it doesn't make your love less. BIG HUG

Need a friend,

I know how you feel.. each time my husband reaches out to me it sends me into a tailspin.. it makes me cry and it hurts me deeply..
Last night he texted "I am so very sorry".. I started crying and didn't stop most of the night..

Do you have a pet? My dog zoe is great to cuddle with and has given me so much love and comfort through this.

It is so hard to get through this... I know somewhat how you feel.. I go through such big swings of up and down.. and its so hard.. the downs..

I have tried to make sure I get sleep even if I have to take something to do so.. I hope your sleeping.. and eating and taking care of you even though you don't want to .. I know that feeling too.

I think we need to remember and say to ourselves over and over again.. they are not who we thought they were.. they are not the men we loved once.. they are not who we thought.

Take care.

You are not alone......I .would rather not wake up anymore. My prayers for both of us.

When you start feeling like this, consult the list of all the horrible, horrible things he has done to you. He's an abuser and should be the last person in the world you think of when you need comfort. I understand the loneliness and longing for comfort, but you can't get it from him because he doesn't have it to give. He hurt you, terribly. He is the reason why you feel like this right now. I know you know this. In time your heart will catch up with your brain. It will get better.

You are all so kind. I don't know what I would do without you. I am having a difficult weekend right now.

Blondie - "you can't logic your heart" - I love that!