Hey guys, in need of some help. 3 months ago I was dumped by my gf who I thought would be the one. She always said I was her soul mate, she'd never leave me and that she whole heartedly believed we were meant for each other.

There were always communication problems where she'd always just push me away when there were troubles. She was also depressed and was on medications which made it complicated.

Anyways, we had a messy breakup when I snapped at her at her workplace because I found out she was being harassed and touched by a guy and I didn't know. This led to a fight in public but I calmed down and tried to get her to relax so we can talk about it. She kept pushing and shoving me and I was freaking out and then all of a sudden she just snapped and said she didn't want me anymore. 

From that day onwards she hasn't ever replied to my messages, calls and hasn't even bothered to make things right. She literally just closed the door on me. She never properly even said goodbye and neither did I. There is so much unresolved.

I thought I was doing better but then yesterday I stumbled on her Playstation streams on YouTube and saw she was playing a guy that used to keep messaging her and snap chatting her. My heart instantly dropped. I don't know what to think or do. I feel like I've been setback.

I also even found out through someone yday that in March she was holding some dudes hand after work and even resting on his arm. I always believed she was loyal and she herself was cheated on many times. I can't remember much back in March but she was still in love with me all the way until June 30th when I had that massive burst of anger. 

I just feel sad, broken and betrayed. I can't shake the feeling that it's not only been 3 months and she's moving on. After spending a full year devoting my time and energy it's like she's completely forgotten who I am and acts like I never existed and it hurts. 

Ive tried everything I possibly can to contact her. I'm no saint. I know I wasn't the best and I had my flaws and ultimately she left because she couldn't handle the fights and the anger. 

I have reflected a lot and I am thankful she left because I can finally see my flaws and I'm working on fixing them. I just want to talk to her and know how she's doing and apologise for not being the best partner I could've been even though I cared for her like no one ever did. 

I just need some help guys, I really don't know what to do. It just sucks. Do you guys think she still loves me or will ever contact me? 

Thank you for any support given and I pray everyone's broken hearts mend