Dude, I get it .. Been on the roller coaster for a while now.. feeling pretty shaky again since yesterday.. But I am told the good days will start to outnumber the bad eventually if we are doing the work.. So hang in there man, don't give up or give in just hold on to what you know is true and let it keep you..
Peace and best wishes

Enjoy the good days. Be thankful for them. Use them to your advantage to do things you find impossible to do on bad days. Good days show us the light at the end of the tunnel :D

I feel your pain. I was doing well until I had to see him at my son's football practice last night and then I hurt all over again but at least this time I wasn't crying on the way home. As my grandmom is fond of saying, "This too shall pass".

Thanks guys, this is a big help. I know today will progressively get better I can already feel it. Mornings are just the worst (We all know that).
I'm gonna conquer this and be better and she's gonna regret it! and tiny...your grandma is right, this too shall pass.

I'd try to be one with the fact that your consistency will BE inconsistency for a while. Part of the healing process. Hang in there, you'll make it to the other side.

For me, its still iffy as to what kind of a day I will have. But somehow as slow as it has been, there has been progression.

Like the mornings are still really hard, but the duration of my crying has lessened. The amount of times I cry and feel gut wrenching pain has lessened. You might not notice it right away, but its been 28 days for me now and I have overanalyzed, hated myself, blamed myself, been sick, cried for an entire day, screamed at myself in my car. Thrown myself on the floor crying how unfair it is.
But something happened while I didnt notice- I began healing and accepting. I know I have a ways to go-but there is hope now.

And as everyone told me here and at home, it will get easier, and I promise you it will.

it's been 33 days for me and i never know which me will wake up first..wounded crying wendy or fake happy wendy..but i'm coming to terms with the fact that he's never coming back..and that itself sucks..

I agree with the others.. it is like riding a bucking bronco.. up and down. when you get too anxious don't forget to BREATHE.

hang in there. it does get easier.

You mean I am not the only one going crazy here? I swear the people who listen to me talk must think I am out of my rabbid mind...one day I am talking about dating again the next day I am stuck in my own head about how no man will want to date a woman with all my problems...who even knows which is true anymore? And other people have little compassion in the real world, it seems...Still, i shouldn't be telling everyone my problems. It's just hard not to talk about the divorce when my life has been ripped apart. Please tell me it gets easier...

I assure you mk76- we have all felt/are going crazy. And yes, it does get easier. Its hard as all hell every single day. But it does get easier.

I hate when I'm starting to do better, and then something comes up (like my STBX saying something stupid to one of my kids), and then I get down again. Not bad like in the beginning, just feeling low. In that rut now. Thought divorce was progressing, but his attorney won't even return my attorney's calls or letters. His attorney was supposed to be doing all the paperwork, but I've seen nothing. Have to get something filed by the end of the year because both kids will be going to college next year, and I sure as hell could use help with their college funding through the financial aid they would be getting. What is he such a PITA?! Who knows. That's what gets me down. That and the fact that I can barely make ends meet, and the divorce settlement was going to get me my half of the house. Sure could use that money. Oh well, all in due time I guess. Just want to rip this bandaid off and get on with my life!

its almost like you put that bandaid on and it wouldnt stay so you glued AND duct taped it down. I'm ready to move on too.

Yeah, I just really need to get on with it. Hard when it's not all up to you. Ugh!

I'm laying in bed not functioning at all right now. I started my day with coffee the treadmill and plans to go out of town to put flowers on my mom's grave-today would be her birthday, now I am just miserable crying and pathetic all over again.

Ohh, sorry you're feeling down today. Go take a walk outside. That always makes me feel better. Sometimes I cry, but then I feel better after I do. You won't feel this way forever, so just knowing that helps a little I think.