Brain Injury Support Group
Traumatic brain injury occurs when a sudden trauma causes brain damage. TBI can result from a closed head injury or a penetrating head injury. Symptoms of a TBI can be mild, moderate, or severe, depending on the extent of the damage to the brain. Outcome can be anything from complete recovery to permanent disability or death. A coma can also affect a child's brain.
Posting my journal for tonight. Perhaps I might sleep better knowing that it's out there for the world to read:
It's 11PM. I'm sleepy but not sleepy. I have so much anxiety that even being on all of this medication, half running and walking 2 miles on the threadmill can't solve. I'm having several glasses of wine. I'm living in this house like a ghost. Tom and I are in seperate rooms like roommates. If we do talk, it turns into a shouting match. He says he can't handle driving me around to doctor's appointments, work related things and buying groceries etc. I'm trying to save whatever cash I have to pay for doctors visits since this accident especially not having insurance. After being yelled at by him today, I asked him if he's ever thought of WOW...in just a few months her life has changed so drastically. How is she coping???? He had no response.
I've lost my company that I worked so hard to build. This was the make or break year. My house is rented out, I can't even go back there and now he wants me to move out, one of my brokers ran off with clients money. I'm trying not to think about it. Luckily the client is out of state. I will deal with it once I get my head straight. How funny is that? Head straight? TBI?? What a joke. I mean I don't know what else could go wrong.
Today Tom showed me a video he took of torturing my dog. It was a 3 minute long video on his phone. She's my everything and 11 years old with hip problems. My heart sank as I watched the video. I wanted to break his face. I don't know any other 43 old man that would do that. I simply cannot comprehend his abusive behavior. He's been calling me a cunt, bitch, fuck you, and every name in the book. I'm stuck like a prisoner in this house until I figure out where we can go, with no family around and not being able to drive.
Only God can give me the strength to go on. Some days I wish I would never wake up. It would be easier to be put out of this misery. Yes, I am depressed. Welcome Depression! I wish my parents were closer so I could go there. But life is not easy. I can't support myself financially from a different state. I've cried. And I will cry some more. We are no where near enough.
You don't have time to get your head straight
You will face criminal and civil liabilities from that broker running off with your client's money (am a lawyer)
You need to report it to avoid the appearance of impropriety - you know, did nothing.
You have a fiduciary responsibility to your client to report the embezzlement to the police
You have a duty to yourself to keep your professional reputation clean
This isn't legal advice, got to put that in here. Just common sense what you need to do and would do if you were not so overwhelmed.
Money always comes; you can get through this.
Contact the Small Business Administration they operate the Service Corps of Retired Executives and can hook you up with business advisors who can salvage your business for free.
You go girl, do what you need to do
Stop drinking the wine.
The wine is the worst thing for head injuries, as are most medications unless you are having seizures.
The whole exercise thing is crucial.
Learn to ride a bus and get a buss pass.
A lot of social service agencies give out free bus passes to documented disabled individuals.
Most areas have special buses that will pick up disabled people to get them to their appointments.
Medicaid - state insurance for people without insurance covers transportation right now
Regular insurance covers it
You got disability insurance?
Don't stop paying it
That was the first thing I let go when I had cash flow problems (stupid but made sense to me at the time, lol) and now I cant get it
You need a restraining order to kick him out of his house until yours is available based on the emotional abuse, your TBI and him torturing your dog.
If you don't go that way then don't engage with him in a negative way - he don't care about you as a disabled person, and you don't know if he be scared of it because he sees how changed you are - get smart.
You are smart.
It just takes you longer to figure out a good plan, that you can do
Did you really see what he did?
Did he really torture your dog?
Did he set it up so he was just torturing you because he knows you aren't seeing things clearly?
Still bad on his part. Seen couples do bad things when they love each other because they were scared, overwhelmed, didn't understand
Once they talked, actually communicated about what was going on, what they thought without other person interrupting with, 'what about me' and then identified what they wanted. The two came up with a plan.
That's what being a couple is.
Coming up with plans
How to live together
How to live apart
How to reach out
How to get back to what we had
How to go forward
You noticed life didn't stop cuz your brain did.
You noticed it is so hard.
What's new?
You are in your 40s
Life is always hard, on those breaks when it is easy we forget.
You started a business
You own a house
You aren't done yet
You got this.