Hi All, I'm new here! would need ur suggestions please.

I'm 30 yrs and my husband is 30 too. 

I got married to a person in 3 months of knowing him..it was an arranged marriage. my mom some what after the engagement didn't like my husband due to his abnormal behaviour.. he used to be very moody and always looked at the ground when the families gathered..later my mom wanted to call off the wedding..which was too late as I was already in love with him and as he always asked me not to leave him I didn't want to break up..and also coz he tried to kiss and hug me before the wedding... I couldn't imagine doing this with anyone other than my husband ( we didn't have sex) I knew he had some problems but thought sex was not everything and I loved him more than sex or anything in life..

He never used to talk about kiss, hug or sex before wedding nor was he excited about our wedding night.

On our wedding nigh he got a spray, some herbal pills to help him get hard...I thought it was ok as I didn't know much about it and it was my 1st time..

Things were very very weird after that...

He had a very tuff time being a normal man to me..he never kissed me  he would turn his face if I tried to kiss him, sleep at 8, no romance, he always struggled getting it hard...he always insisted we adopt a baby..

By the time I could think he was impotent I found a X ray of his skull and a report that showed him to be a kidney done to his dad 5 yrs..I was just married for 2 weeks and I was shattered to know such a cheat my husband and their family was..

Later his dad told he met with an accident and he went on coma, his mother with panic corrected telling he didn't go on come but was find talking to everyone. my husband said he was acting like a mad man tearing his clothes. he said even after a month of the accident when he tried to get up from the bed he used to feel like someone hitting him with a hammer..

He dosent work, his parents lied he's a pastor but he is not.. he sleeps a lot..maybe he is on some anti depression or some brain resting pills..

He never feels anyone's feeling and emotions.. his sister hurt her toe from the chair my husband was sitting and started bleed...he didn't have any reaction but continued to eat his food while I jumped from the chair and cried as she was crying in pain..

I ve applied for divorce BUT I love him a lot!! I don't know why...

He's not loving, he's impotent, only one kidney, dosent work, somewhat acts like a psyco, has no feelings. he would switch off his phone when he's little upset with me..he never expresses his feelings, he's ok if I leave him, very sensative, egoistic, anger out bursts, he has no friends, not in good terms with his sister's or brother or his dad nor my parents but just with his mother and with great difficulty in ok ok terms with me..reason being I compromise soon as I love him

Could the impotence and his abnormal behaviour be due to the accident where he hurt his head???

I want him back in my life but I'm scared I ll get into depression and become mentally ill as 3 months of my marriage was a hell..

Please tell if my husbands behaviour was coz he's impotent or was it coz of his accident that hurt his head.. he always said his inability to perform sex was to do with the nerves from his brain..he also has problems with blood supply to his brain..RBC counts were high...

Please advise