In my case if I died and there was no after life, I would have never known I died. That's the way it is. I don't really know what lead up to my head injury. I only wish I could go back in time and relive it all again.

Hi Red, There are times, especially at night, when I get really depressed..it use to bother me alot....it was a despair/no purpose feeling/I would go to bed and the next morning I often felt better/especially after my coffee/it wasn't so much that my situation suddenly changed/got better/I was just able to find some perspective/and that made a huge difference for me/fatigue/needing sleep maybe??

With all due respect to your doc, his statement sounds like *black and white* thinking to me.....he can't possibly know all of us, no one can, and we are all so different....I was never in a coma, sent home from the er with a *rest you'll be fine* statement....yeah right!!!

I realize I'm different...it's taken years to come to terms with....but even early in life I felt different...had depression..marriage did not work...working in a hospital was rewarding, but very stressfull, I know there are those here who can't remember past events/I remember too many...and I wish I could forget.....sounds strange, but my emotions go all over the place now...over-sensitive/over-emotional when past memories
come up.

I also wish there was more understanding of Tbi/Abi....I feel like docs/friends/family/often trivialize our injuries/changes/and I find that so frustrating that I stay to myself/enter the world on my terms/I'm a senior citizen now (cough/hack) and I don't take any crap from anyone anymore....again it's taken time and I express myself better now...I'm nice/sort of/but my favorite saying is * Different isn't Dumb*...maybe I finally reached acceptance, but it has been a hard road/to answer your question/I may have had those thoughts in the past....but I guess I moved past them....I hope and pray!! This site has helped me do that too!!! Blessings

some times the Dr. just says something that catches me off guard, so I thought I'd see how many people here thought the same way. Like when he said when you had your wreck you was 32, that was 32 yrs to program yourself. Now your having to learn to reprogram yourself. You'll be fine, but it's going to take time. Its crazy how someone can say something and it makes you think for days. Dear cheesecake your only as old as you feel, so like I tell my older sisters drop it like its hot..

Well you have a very interesting doctor. I never had a chance to know my doctor. All I know is I was rushed to the hospital. and my doctor did surgery on me. And most probably watched over me while I was hospitalized but I can't remember a thing. I just can't remember visiting him once after I was sent back home. A nursing service watched over me then.

There is a large part of me who wish I would have died, because I wouldn't know the difference and my pain would be gone.