My father, 58, was diagnosed today with a glioblastoma. They said he has a fifty fifty chance of living 2 years. I'm in complete shock but the thing I cannot process is how to keep going when I feel as if the world has stopped moving. I'm sitting in my house feeling like I should be dropping everything, school, work, etc. to spend every moment left with him. I'm terrified of feeling guilty in the end for having tried to live life as normally as possible even though that's what he wants. I'm just not sure of anything or how to cope with what's happening. How do you go to work, school, anything knowing that your time with a loved one is limited? I'm not necessarily looking for a right answer because I know there are none, but I needed to put my thoughts and feelings out there because they are eating away at me. Knowing he may not even have grandchildren before he dies or that he will likely not see my 30th birthday is unbearable. I can't talk to my mom because she is trying to cope on her own and I don't want to burden her. My husband is great but doesn't completely understand. I just needed to write out all of this while my brain tries to makes heads or tails of what's happening. The support groups on this site have always been so wonderful and comforting to me. Thank you for reading my ramblings.
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