i think i'm going crazy i dont know whether this is my bpd or not. ive started hearing and seeing things and its terrifies me.i told my partner last night as she was leaving for work but she hasn't mentioned it this morning and i can't bring the subject up again it took me all my time to tell her last night as she was leaving for work.
i went up to the shop the other day and "saw" someone walk across the road in front of me i slammed my brakes on and the car behind nearly hit me.he got out and had a go at me what could i say to him i thought i saw someone walking across the road when there was no one there.i didn't tell my partner as i felt so stupid.
also i'm beginning to resent my partner hero to zero type of thing.i see her as the enemy the one who is trying to stop me getting better from bpd.
i go to a dbt course every week and try to put in pratice at home what i learn but it seems like everytime i try to be assertive she is trying to stop me like she got to have control,thats how i see it.is this again my bpd.i just feel like i'm going crazy and cannot cope much longer.
i try and rationalise during rows but i can't i just feel although my partner is getting at me.i feel like it's all my fault for having bpd.