hi i just joined the group. i have the same issue with trying to even slow down my thoughts i was wrongly diagnosed as bi-polar none of the meds worked unless you count the weight gain when my new doctor talked to me about this i jumped on the web and did my homework now it all seems to make some sense and am getting better results from the meds please feel better knowing it is not only you and it also drives me batty some days when for the life of me i wish i had an off switch in my head i have heard alot about DBT and the benefits yet i am still ruled by fear of trying it out the way i feel like such a reject i do my best to take it moment by moment day by day it is never easy. this group is my reaching out for suppport and understanding i hope that it helps

Unlike a lot of people who find this disorder to be a problem...I find that it can be fascinating and entertaining to have. I am easily able to amuse people...that is perfectly okay with me. Though...because of it...my roommate thinks I may have early alzhiemers. Which I think is kind of funny. I'm pretty sure I don't....but, she thinks it's a possibility.

Just remember, though, you are NOT alone!!! We all suffer(those of us who have this disorder), even if we find out disorders to be of some amusement, because not all days are good days. Hopefully you'll find the right treatment and the right meds that will help you control your symptoms. :)

What medications??
I was not aware there were meds for BPD...

What medications??
I was not aware there were meds for BPD...

What medications??
I was not aware there were meds for BPD...

There.s no medications you right, but doctors often proscribe things off licence, to treat of of the side symptomatic of the disorder.

Nope no specific meds for BPD, WhySoSerious was right. Rather than prescribe meds for the disorder itself, my docs prescribe my meds for the symptoms and side effects (like with WhySoSerious) of the disorder as they present themselves. (Anti-depressants, anti-anxiety meds, meds for my nervous system, etc.). No easy fix I'm afraid. God, I wish there was!

Risperidone has been a God send for me...I have problems catching hold of my thoughts too....

I agree, I think it is quite often intrinsic with BPD to have pervasive thought patterns. This is the reason I smoke, to slow my mind down, I would like to find a better coping mechanism. For the time being though it can temporarily do the job. I find the more stressed I am the more intrusive and distressing my thoughts get. To one of the comments below I have to say that I have never known anyone to enjoy having BPD. I don't know your background and I am not passing judgement I am just very shocked, I find this insufferable and have never met anyone who finds it funny, well done though if you have managed to somehow turn the situation into a positive one. I am confused as to how you managed that, so if you have any tips then please pass them on...

Depression, anxiety, low self esteem, difficulty trusting others, feeling isolated, panic, illogical and delusional thoughts, racing thoughts and feeling overwhelmed are all symptoms of being borderline. Hurting the ones you love and hating yourself for doing so, & self destructive behavior as well... These symptoms cross over other disorders, like PTSD, ADD, Bipolar Disorder, Antisocial Personality, Insomnia, can be misdiagnosed or comorbidities (Having 2 or more diagnoses at the same time). If you've been abused it's very difficult to determine what your disorder actually is.

This is a characteristic of bpd and a very common one. It seems you have discovered and recognized that. Props to you for being mindfully aware. In DBT therapy there are three circles, reasonable mind, emotional mind and the goal is to strive for the center which combines both emotional and reasonable mind so that functioning after cognitive process is more effective.:) If you have any questions I would be more than happy to help.

One of the "problems" in BPD is the collision of emotional reactions and cognitive thought processes.

You may not be able to condition a logical response, although you try, while having a highly emotional reaction that just seems to override any kind of logical thought process. Thus you suffer confusion.

Until you learn to slow down the emotional component, it may well be impossible to think things through. This is like trying to speak with someone on the cell phone in a loud room of boisterous people. In addition, your own internal messages interfere with your logical processes as well.

lol..they dislike the term "logical thinking" in my DBT group. My director prefers the term "reasonable mind". lol..sounds like a judgment to me( I know I'm a stinker).

On a serious note though..reducing vulnerabilities is a way to slow down the emotional component of borderline. It is taught in dbt and ways to work on doing so, thus to bring us back to our" reasonable( logical) mind. It is hard, but I've gotten better at it. :) Practice:)

It is a practice...and a choice.

"Reasonable Mind" does sound judgmental to me, too. It leads one to other self conclusions.

Shame to a Narcissist is repugnant. Shame to a person with BPD is a bed to wallow. It's what you do with shame and self shame that makes the difference. It is not YOUR shame, it's the shame of the perpetrators who've emotionally tortured you. You wear THEIR shame and you've done nothing wrong.

As long as you can remind yourself that YOU"VE DONE NOTHING WRONG, (you will learn this mantra over time), you may be able to withstand the internal and external assaults on your life.

My thinking is to place our pain and suffering into a cosmic sense, in that, over time and across this vast world of ours...our pain and suffering is but nothing. It's an inside job, actually...after the fact of others hurting us and programming us to hurt ourselves.

Trauma imprints take a while to heal.

There are two things that I have tried that I find really helpful. When I just cannot put a sentence together, verbally, to let someone know what is going on in my mind I have put it into a poem in the past. But if things are just to messy in my head then I write in my journal. I now write every day. When I first started I would just put things down on paper as they came into my head and nothing really made much sense. Slowly I am learning to order my thoughts before I put them on paper. It takes a lot of work but maybe this will help untangle things and reduce the confusion you feel. The other good thing about writing things down is that it really does not matter if everything come out wrong or in the an order that does not make sense as no one else will see it!