Bisexuality Support Group
Bisexuality is a sexual orientation which refers to the aesthetic, romantic, and/or sexual attraction of individuals to other individuals of both their own and the opposite gender or sex. Most bisexuals are not equally attracted to men and women, and may even shift between states of finding either sex exclusively attractive over the course of time.
I'll try to make this short. I was confident that I am straight until somebody told me that I am a closet gay or in denial and need to come out. That got to me so hard and that I started doubting my orientation.
I look at gay porn or nude men and I don't have desires to do anything. I feel this sensation on my penis but I don't consider it pleasing and it is unwanted.
Then I pushed myself harder by masturbating to gay porn and I don't enjoy it. It makes me feel weird and uncomfortable. I try masturbating while having an erection from viewing women and then switching to gay porn. It feels like I want to ejaculate or urinate and don't like it.one time I pushed myself hard enough where I did achieve ejaculation but the orgasm and everything was miserable. I don't like what I look at. When I don't push myself too hard and feel that way, I notice that I go flaccid.
Years later after that episode I forgot about it and left behind as it consumed my life. It happened again with my obsessions, the same thing. I usually go flaccid. But if I use a vibrator on my penis, this would elicit a response but again I am not enjoying the gay porn or nude men.
After doing that even vibrator doesn't do anything to me except make me feel that weird feeling.
Am I in denial? Or am I just over thinking and pushing myself too much? I try to convince myself that I am gay, not because I want to but just to see if I really am. When I masturbate to women, it feels great and get hard in no time.
Now here's the thing. I'm definitely bi, like in love with a man right now kind of bi. One thing though, I'm not interested in anal sex at all. Blow jobs, sure, mutual masturbation, yep, anal, no way. If you're bi or gay it doesn't mean you have to be into everything bi or gay. It would take a lot for me to try out anal, and I don't think I ever want to if I can help it (people poop from that hole!) If I'm looking up porn, I can get off to a masturbating man, or two guys giving blowjobs to each other, but as soon as the anal starts I lose it.
Now in your case, are you attracted to men in any sense? Is it like me where there's a certain thing that I dislike about the bi/gay life? Or are you just not turned on by men at all? From what you say, someone suggesting you may be gay made you questions yourself, when in reality, no one should suggest what you are/aren't. Only you know what's going on in your head and only you can determine that answer. Don't let others influence what you feel and do.