It is tougher to be bi rather than just gay or hetero. I am bi. It was very hard for me. Living in a small town, as referred as big hell, I had two choices play heater or come out as gay.

i like this girl a lot, who is sister of a good friend. We almost dated. When I was working on dating her, I realized that I like men more than women. So I came out as gay. Go few rejections, actually fewer than what I anticipated. I ignored the critics and focussed on the accepting friends and family. I cannot try to date women anymore since now the whole town knows I am gay. So be it.

Just try to enjoy you life with those who accept you. Things will fall into place. It seems hard at the beginning, but things get better. there will be ups and down, but sooner or later things calm down.

People who seem rejecting will eventually come around if they love you. If they don't, then you know who is there for you and who is not.

Hope this helps at least a bit.

Big hug.
Andy

When I first came out, I had never heard of a bisexual. You were either straight or gay. So I came out gay. Then when I finally did hear about bisexuals all I heard from both straight and gay people was that bisexuals were just confused, and either straight or gay, so I stayed gay. Before I came out gay, I dated both girls and guys at the same time, that stopped when I came out and I only dated guys. But then I met a couple of girls that I had feelings for, and even talked to them about being more than friends, but to them I was the gay best friend, not dating material. Then I met a woman that swept me off my feet. We've been married for 17 years now,, more in love than ever But I still need to feel the touch of a man's hand on my back, I need to feel his strong arms surround me, and pull me close to his muscular chest. But, even though I told my wife before we started dating about my sexuality, and she was ok with it being my past, she is very scared of it being my present. As long as it's my past it's ok, but to think I'm doing it now, she only says d-i-v-o-r-c-e. I'm sure that if she actually understood why I need both, she would be ok with me having a special friend, as long as he was only a friend, and not romantic But, first she will not even listen to a word I say, she refuses to hear it, and if I even bring it up, she says the big D word. So How can I get her to understand if she won't even acknowledge that part of me exist? Then also, I don't fully understand, so how can I explain it to her, if I don't understand? So I sit here day after day, unable to acknowledge that half of me exist. It hurts so bad, but it would hurt worse to lose her, so I'm screwed.

You mentioned being a minister, I'm not a minister, but I have always been extremely spiritual (not religious, but spiritual), and I have a very strong faith in God. I would sit in a gay bar and argue the existance of God. I would lay in bed with a man (or men), and discuss my beliefs, and how I could have faith when most of the church as a whole, is against homosexuality. I was lucky I would go to a gay bar Saturday night, and play the piano at church Sunday morning, sometimes in the same clothes, and arrived with the same man, I went to the bar with. The whole church knew about my sexuality, my dad often asked for prayer for me to leave that life. However not the first time was anything said, about how I lived and loved. I was not looked down on the first time, so I was able to maintain my faith the entire 7 years I lived as a gay man. I was also asked to speak to a group of 10 missionaries about homosexuality and the scripture. When I "went straight" and got married, no one said anything about me leaving that life. I know I was lucky, most people don't have the support I had, and that is sad. I believe that it is something that is changing slowly.

If you want to, please email me, and I can give you some verses that support a homosexual being spiritual.

maybe you should ask yourself, why are professing Christians judgmental. You yourself being ordained should also be that way.
If you follow your bible and what should be your beliefs according to your scripture you are suppose to call sin just what it is, sin. That is
in itself making a judgement. If your church is a bible believing church then you should know what to expect. What ever they say should be done with love and understanding. As for you, search your scripture, Gods words, not mans acceptance or criticisms. And as far as "why you" don't forget, Moses was a murderer, God chose him too.

we all need one from time to time, here's a big hug for you, take care and keep the faith