Hey guys this might not be the right place to post this, but hear goes, oww and sorry about grammar and spelling going to school was never my thing.

Hear we go so i have always been attracted to girls, however when i see certain male body parts (kinda of embarrassed) i become extremely aroused more so then when i see girls, however i am still attracted to girls, i own several sex toys all of witch are replicas of said male body part, i know its kinda sad but im kinda a loner and have never been able to start girlfriend/boyfriend relationships, to put it in perspective right now i have 4 friends and i drink by myself (i like to be alone). Most of the time when i see guys i think whatever but ever now and again i see a guy and i really wont too (embarrassed) have Relations with him, but i feel the same way a bout certain girls. But like i said to scared of rejection to ask anyone out.

I don't expect anyone to tell me im gay or straight that would be stupid because only i could know however, My question has any one else experienced this if so please help me understand, any responses would be appreciated.

Thank you