i talked to the doctor over the phone a couple of days ago 

we agreed thtg my episodes have changed from my norm

she out it down to stress which was triggering them to occur more often and differtent more morbid

i am still on the same meds she suggested raise zyprexa only a small increase but it really should not be increased i am on max dose 20mg so i opted out side effects and i was once overdosed 40mg and there was no imoprovedment so that is not an option

the lamical was not increased 200mg it can be but was once in 300mg and ni change except i stopped sleeping fpr a year so not really not what we want to happen again and there was really an improvement

so my only option is to try and relive  the stress

i cannot afford a controntation i was arrested once where i lived faced 7 years in jail and there was the chance of losing my disability and am unable to work so i have to  careful

my problem for what i am asing you is ways to reduce stress and get rid of my worries

i really am concerned

therapy is out she agreed that it would not be an option because of the way i react to therapy i become angry which does not help therapists makep me angry with the therapist they ask to many  personal questions that i do not to share and they no right to invade my my space

i need some help right now te doctor is montering me and my miids by talking to me more which helps