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Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Without meds......poor choice?

charmingdisaster
charmingdisaster
Hey everyone. I have been away from here for a bit but I wanted to share something. Several months ago I stopped all my bipolar meds. I couldn't do it anymore. I felt awful each day from what they did to me, my liver started having problems, and I was frustrated. I packed up and left the place I went for therapy and meds. I didn't feel I was getting what I needed. However, my intention was to go elsewhere. That didn't happen mainly bc I still owe the other place. I'm at a point now where I recognize Ive been doing bad things and will probably do more because I know I'm getting to a manic phase. My depression was bad but this mania is making me feel great at the moment. I know what's next but I feel like it's something I can't stop. I'm struggling and I'm a little scared bc I'm not always in my right mind.
spacekat
spacekat
I understand all of the negative effects of meds, but don't you miss feeling balanced or stable? Or did you never feel that way? I am too afraid to stop my meds - bad things always happen. But that's just me.
charmingdisaster
charmingdisaster
I miss the stable feeling but at the time I felt worse physically. I lose it more than before. I know I'm going into manic now and I've already gotten myself in trouble with some things. I'm feeling very lost. When I stopped I really thought the diagnosis wasn't true. However since being off them, everything has changed.
spacekat
spacekat
Maybe it's time to reconsider? Or not? What do you mean by "everything has changed"? In a good way or a bad way or indifferent?
charmingdisaster
charmingdisaster
It may be time to reconsider. I've been putting myself in bad situations and things have gotten bad for me.
oklahomabbw
oklahomabbw
Hi there. I had been institutionalized and put on meds back in 2007-2008, I kept up with them until about 2010 then had to stop because I lost my job and simply can not afford the Dr bills or the meds. It has really hurt me because I have horrible bad days, and all I can do is lock myself in my room and stay away from everyone, I get so angry and so much hate at times I know I need the meds but really nothing to do at this time, so I wish you the best of luck and hope you find what helps you!
Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
hi, might be best to act before it is too late. good luck
charmingdisaster
charmingdisaster
Thank you! I was institutionalized a couple years ago so I'm concerned about it happening again. I'm on the edge and already feel I'm in enough trouble.
irishwriter
irishwriter
give it a try going back to your place of therapy and meds. they can only help and it might just be the next right thing for you before things get too out of hand. hugs and good luck with it.
spacepony
spacepony
I agree with CuriousFish.... Keep us posted if you will.
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
I have been through a long journey with meds, as have many of us. Keep trying to make a breakthrough. If you had a bad experience there are so many other options to try. I was on tons of meds at first with no therapy. When what I learned I needed was different types of therapy, support and the right, fewer meds. We are all different and require different things but yes, be your own advocate. And reach for support!
charmingdisaster
charmingdisaster
I had a rough night last night and I'm struggling more this way than before so I am hoping getting an appt won't take too long.
goodfarey
goodfarey
I hope you get some help in a hurry if that's what you need.
Mania feels good for only a little while in my experience.
(((hugs))) Feel better soon.
jimgreg
jimgreg
I know what you mean!! I did this twice, but I went manic, I thought I could get off them, and found out when I took them again it didn't do anything..I went to pdoc he wasn't happy at all. He did get me under control. You may want to get back on them..I know you like the mania but can get really bad for you..
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