Lose your conditioned thinking.

Honestly I think it is somewhat positive that you seem to have motivation to do things and don't like it when you waste time. Working on keeping this positive aspect!

Try to remember to find your moments of joy in life. Life is harsh sometimes so we have to find our happiness. Maybe it's our children, the sun shining on your face or a phone call to an old friend. Just take it a day at a time and try not to be so hard on yourself. I am sure that you are a wonderful person take care of yourself.

I beat myself up all of the time as well, it's something we as Bipolar do really well, "we do it so it feels like hell" as Anne Sexton said in one of her poems. We feel guilty for doing right and even more guilty than is proper when making a mistake. You are not alone in this, grant yourself some levity; we're not perfect but if we strive for what is good in all that we do, we cannot go wrong.

Okay I just looked at your profile. You are a stunning lady if you haven't noticed. We are all our own worst critics. You being 19 doesn't help either. I swear things didn't start clicking for me until I was like 24, even then it was still hard. You can't do everything in one day, week or month. Just take things an hour at a time if you have to and roll with it. We all go through self-loating moments. You are not alone sweets.

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Agreed.

You can learn more by failing than achieving goals.

have you started your meds yet allie? or therapy? i know you are new to all of this but like was said earlier, give it one hour at a time, sometimes one minute. give yourself some credit for hanging in there and keep working on it.

u r not alone in this, i am proud of u in the fact u think that it is a waste of time when u don't get done what u have set out to do. don't b so hard on urself, try resetting ur goals for the day when ur in this mood to a smaller list. i am here if u want to talk.

sounds like you are feeling alone in your mental health recovery. I suggest you seek out a support group so you can share your struggles with people who don't mind that you are not at your best. I always loved my support group because it felt so good to walk into a room and not have to explain myself. I also recommend a great class NAMI offers called Peer to Peer. It is a 9 week class taught by other folks living with mental illness. Its focus is to help folks find success in recovery. The class is free. go to nami.org to find your local chapter and see if they offer the course. I think having a good therapist also makes a huge difference. I get support and a place to explore the challenges my illness creates for living my life.

I use to do all this too. Now that I;am on the right meds I do not at all beat myself up anymore.I'am productive and basically a happy person.Are you on meds? Maybe they need checked and twicked a bit till you find the right combo.I notice if I forget to take my meds for a bit then those thoughts of worthless and anger and sadness start showing up again. Hope this helps you, hope you get better and find some peace.Love, Jolynn. Here for you if you would ever like to talk. xoxoxooxooxoxo

Bi-polar is not fun times.
It is obviously physical otherwise there would be everyone who is bi-polar.
Just do the best you can@!

Try to go on different meds and get more therapy it will help.