Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Shlay 04/30/2010

I'm sitting in my room balling my eyes out. Thinking far too much. Way too lonely. Why can't I comprehend kindness and love? Why do I always feel as if it is going to stab me in the back? Why can't I trust? Why can't I open up when it matters? Why am I so sad? Why can't I just cope with life like a normal person?

starfish 04/30/2010

That's all stuff a good therapist can help you sort out. There are several possible reasons.

((( hugs )))

deleted_user 04/30/2010

I am sorry you are feeling so down. I don't have a lot of good answers for you except to say you are not alone. I am sure a lot of us here feel the same way you are feeling from time to time. I do believe therapy may be the first step to figuring some things out.

deleted_user 04/30/2010

*sigh* *hugs*...cause there's so much Stuff going on right now, Shlay! Cause there's so much Change and Newness taking place in your life.

And it takes awhile to get all that sorted out.

Hang in there, because we all ask (or asked) those questions at some point.

Therapy can be a great place to ask most of those questions, too. And find the answers in Yourself (except the last one, which never gets answered except for bipolar)

:)

simplegirl 04/30/2010

You are crying because you are thinking of all the questions that you are asking, you can't get a hold of the answers. Yes you are thinking way too much. Are you on medication? Call your doc and tell him what you are feeling and he can change something.

Maybe you can't comprehend kindness and love because you won't let yourself. You can't trust maybe because you've been hurt one too many times. You build a wall, so it's hard to open up, you just have to do it. You're sad because You feel all these feelings.

You can't cope with life like a normal person because you aren't normal, none of us are. We have to accept that and live life the best that we can. Bipolar is a bitch and the only way to fight back is through medication.

I hope you feel better soon. Don't give up, you need to be patient. Your trust will eventually come back and the wall will come down. You just have to find a place in your life to let it all go. Don't give up, it will get better. Hugs

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