Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I'm living with an inconsistent and unreliable man. It's so hard to have bipolar and have things become chaotic on top of it. Sometimes I feel that everything is wonderful. Most often I enjoy our time together. We enjoy the same basic things. We both like computers and art, our pets and taking walks together and such things. So those things are going ok... mostly.
Yet, I wait on him hand and foot. I do most everything around here and besides that I pay half the bills. I take care of him and his finances because if I didn't he'd be a mess.... just like he was when we met. I've helped him through everything and what I get in return is heartache. I'm at the point where I can't take it anymore. He makes me hurt until I cry. He can be so brutal to me emotionally.
There are studies that say for a relationship to work there has to be a raito of 5 good things to every bad thing... and I think it's close to that. Hell though! What he does is give me the good days.. and with one drasatic down turn into an abusive behavior - he can take it all away. So I feel that I have no security at all. I'm just going to look forward to when I get into a better financial situation. That's my goal. Then I'll have more choices. He doesn't realize that he's hurting himself. One day I'll be able to smile and not have worry about someone who only wants to make me cry.
Yet, I wait on him hand and foot. I do most everything around here and besides that I pay half the bills. I take care of him and his finances because if I didn't he'd be a mess.... just like he was when we met. I've helped him through everything and what I get in return is heartache. I'm at the point where I can't take it anymore. He makes me hurt until I cry. He can be so brutal to me emotionally.
There are studies that say for a relationship to work there has to be a raito of 5 good things to every bad thing... and I think it's close to that. Hell though! What he does is give me the good days.. and with one drasatic down turn into an abusive behavior - he can take it all away. So I feel that I have no security at all. I'm just going to look forward to when I get into a better financial situation. That's my goal. Then I'll have more choices. He doesn't realize that he's hurting himself. One day I'll be able to smile and not have worry about someone who only wants to make me cry.
The thing is, it gets to the point when trying to understand the other person doesn't help since they're so destructive. It's time to get out and away.
We've started going to counseling. It's once a month. We tried going a while back... but only went twice then quit because things got worse at home after the sessions. He even became volatile and broke things.
This time it was better for a little while. Several days in a row were pretty nice. But, his old pattern erupted just shortly before it was time for him to go to work today. I think some of the trouble is he hates that he has to leave and he isn't able to swtich gears into work mode without bringing me down with him. He has clinical depression too. So it's rough at times. I wish he would hurt inside the way he makes me hurt so he knew how it feels. Then he might not do it to others. His words kill me inside and affect me emotionally as well as physically. All I want to do anymore is sleep so I don't have to feel anything.