i am working and waiting for the pdoc nurse to call back- of course now i feel fine and stupid for bothering her, but i know the depression and anxiety will kick in again when it's time to go to bed and will need to know what to do then

Impateintly looking at the clock.

Just got back from my psychiatrist's appointment. Today I am to begin weaning myself off Wellbutrin and once I've been off that for 2 weeks I begin emSam, an MAOI patch. It doesn't have as many contraindications as other MAOIs so that's why we're trying it. This damn depression. Still glad he never did ECT on me. Though I begged. Also glad he's not taking me off of Seroquel XR. That stuff is awesome for me along with the Lithium. So here's crossing my fingers this new med works and I am up and at 'em George MacFadden before ya know it.

Cussing Agnes who once again is on rampage from hell causing more tics then necessary and has caused me to waste more weed then I could afford this week leaving me sans any going into the weekend. Pain level is therefor once again way off the charts grrrrr.

Finishing up a spectacular job of being Housebitch this week for Soss's birthday present - just got to put the finishing touches on the stove and the house does indeed shine and then my scuzzy dirty ass is gonna go soak in a nice hot tub tho its an ungodly 93 or something like that outside

Trying to convince myself to take my meds. Getting that itch for a good ole manic rampage. Know that is going to create all sorts of havoc, but in the "fuck it" mindset.

I've been going, going, going all week. It's great! I cleaned out my closet at 3:30 this morning.

Not much sleep but I ain't complainin :)

took a bunch of meds hopeing to go to slepp early and I am wide awake so I guess I;ll take more in a few hours and hope for the best. Boys are all at soccer practice and just sitting on the couch while my daughter plays a ps3 game.

Is there any thing that gives you any kind of relief right now?

Hey there Chelle! I'm doing well. How are you? I was super busy today. I was late for my tdoc appointment because I lost track of time. Then, I had to be at the Boys & Girls Club and I had to grab lunch on the run. I had a lot of fun at the Boys & Girls Club. I ended up reading to a bunch of kids.

I'm on my way to the shopping centre to return a coffee machine that doesn't work. Then off to pdoc to get my reimbursement. THEN, I have to find a really large box for my daughter - she wants to go skiing down the hill at the park. Hope I can find good wax so the board goes fast :)

I just finished teaching. I had a student that I had just started a lesson with when the next student arrived with her Mom and Dad and two other people. There was already the other Mom and brother there. I didn't have room in my living room so the other two people left but they stood there in front of me deciding what they were goign to do. I had to aske them to get out of the way so I could get back to my student. Then the mother and student sat on my couch and talked while I was teaching. I had to ask them to be quiet...I might lose a student but the little girl who was enjoying herself so much at first immediately became shy with all these people so I had to end the lesson. She was such a cutie and very girly all dressed in pink even had pink nails.

I'm not sure if I did the right thing asking them to be quiet but they acted like they were the only ones there.

Ny 52 year old brother and 62 year old brother in laws's birthdays are coming up and having a extremely small party at my house. So I am making them crowns out of newspaper. I am twisting rolled up newspaper into tight rolls and then braiding three together (duct taping ends for length). Then I will "highlight them with gold spray paint and add some silky fabric to the back and sides to make them look a little Egyptianish. You know wired and creative. They'll look good :)

Came home from work this afternoon and immediately took a nap. Unknown to me, the other half was home sick sleeping in the other room. What a pair we were. I'm recovering from work. Worked last night and doubled back this morning. I'm ready for a day off.

Watching Twilight. Eating chips and salsa. Drinking Root Beer and Jack Daniels. Pissed off at everything going on in my life. Very, very sad. Thinking of taking some more Klonopin.

Took some Xanax. Asked for advice on the depression board regarding the MAOI I am to go on. Figured there might be more people on that board that have tried it. I am so nervous but nervous it won't work, like every other damn anti-depressant. SIGH!!!!

Since Soss has decided to celebrate her birthday and has gone on a beer and pizza run I guess thats what we shall be doing tonight YAY party time