I read Otters post about when would you go back and it got me thinking. I have so many challenges in my life right now (abused kids, marriage problems, finance & my dad dying last July) and sometimes I get to the point where I just don't know which way to turn, what to do or how to do it. I sometimes think I know and then it turns out that what I thought was right, wasn't. The most recent of course as many who know me know is my wife of almost 10 years telling me she doesnt know how much longer she can or wants to deal with my emotionsl issues. WOW!! Talk about a major blow!! I ask her what she needs, how can I be better for her, and she can't even answer me. SHE DOESN'T KNOW!! I thought of this because when would I go back?? I thought about it and I would go back to a time when I was single and depressed most days because I was alone, but at least I knew how I was going to be. I would go back to the first time I made love to the woman who was my first real relationship, I would go back to the 10 days I spent touring through Scotland with one of my girlfriends. I want truly the love of my wife to be restored, to look into her eyes and see the undying love, the passion, to have the woman I feel in love with back......I love you Maureen!! Anybody know what I mean??
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