I was doing so well. it's like i'm bipolar or something.... well I am bipolar... i wrote "crap crap crap" last night because I felt like crap. I woke up this morning and.... crap! I feel like crap still.. like there is a sinking hole in my stomach and heart. i feel like i'm changing into this unpleasant person. bad energy flow.. sadness.. I don't know why this is happening. It probably has something to do with the one year anniversary of the rape coming up and the fall season bringing back unpleasant memories of last year's hospitalizations and what not. But I ... but I ... I was ready for this I was doing so well... what happened?
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