These feelings are merely transitory and probably triggered by specific stressors in your life even the expectation that the day is going to be "crap" as you put it can become a self fulfilling prophecy. If there have been significant changes in your life then that could be a cause and you need to address this by developing coping skills which will prepare you for these events. Perhaps you need a med adjustment and that is something to discuss with doctors and psychiatrists. I really hope you are feeling better soon and know that you are not alone. I've been unable to sleep all week and am dealing with serious sleep deprivation. Be well and Stay Strong.

Sometimes this shitty thing just tricks us into thinking were ready.
Take care

thanks guys. I definitely woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning... but I feel a little better now. I am listening to a meditation song and relaxing at the moment. Trying to. I think I'm going to go for a walk. I have to be wary this season. I feel a lot will come up. I have to realize I can't do it alone and open up to people for help. As far as the med change, my doctor just recently decreased my lithium.. but only by a half tablet for now. It was giving me acne and weight gain and flatness so that's what he's trying. We'll see how that goes.

I have a bad time around the anniversary dates of traumatic events. I call my pdoc and get a med. adjustment. Hugs.

I still feel crappy around bad anneversaries... 9/11 is one for me... and july 4th and thanksgiving... terrrible things happened to me on all those days. Plus this is the 10th year anneversay of my rape. I did ok with those until the tenth... it seems like yesterday still. BUT... I'm much stronger now than I was back then. Counseling/therapy really helped so much. It took me about two years of every week sessions before I was feeling ok again, but then I got self esteem that I never dreamed of having. You can find happinss too. I don't know your situation, but my rapist is also my ex and he terrizes me still to this day, but I still found a nice man who is gently and treats me right and if I could just stop letting my ex get to me we would be happy, adn you can too.

Don't let the bastards get us down!

aLICE

Just remember that all mood changes are related to bipolar. Everybody has ups and downs. Sometimes we turn to critical of an eye on what are general reactions to outward stimuli.

some bad days are just that. Bad days. Sometimes we fail to realize that.

I meant NOT all mood swings are related to bipolar.

Big difference

hang in there grenadine. anniversaries like that are hades.

Oh Alice, thank you for sharing your story... and yes.. We will NOT let the bastards get us down... they are not worth it.

Karl, thanks for what you said. I think you are absolutely right. Not all mood changes are due to bipolar disorder. Some of them are due to events or just normal everyday changes. Like the transition from summer to fall is supposed to be tough.

Thanks everyone for your responses and support. They have helped me so.... and support is what I need at this time.... so thanks