Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
What is keeping you from being truly & thoroughly happy?
For me, it use to be that I had very little - if any - trust for my partner. It was such a binding curse that kept me so focussed on what he was doing that I couldn't enjoy what I was doing. I had such a fear and mistrust that I would just fall apart at the drop of a pin. I had stopped doing all the things I use to enjoy so much - while he was under a microscope!
There were times that I would think I could not see my life without him. Everything I thought about myself depended on what he thought of me. The only joy I felt was when he was with me and when he wasn't my life was on hold. Often I got depressed and felt suicidal :(
I had to realize that people are human and they will let you down. They won't always say what you want or need to hear nor behave just the way you want them to. Although I am loyal, dedicated, and would not betray my partner... he is not me, he has not had my experiences, and may make mistakes.
I had to learn is to trust MYSELF enough to be able to handle whatever comes my way. Now I feel that I have the confidence to trust that I can deal with anything. To realize too that no matter what other people do, I'm a strong person and will get through anything.
This opened up a path of enlightment allowing me to feel joy again. :D
What is in your way?
For me, it use to be that I had very little - if any - trust for my partner. It was such a binding curse that kept me so focussed on what he was doing that I couldn't enjoy what I was doing. I had such a fear and mistrust that I would just fall apart at the drop of a pin. I had stopped doing all the things I use to enjoy so much - while he was under a microscope!
There were times that I would think I could not see my life without him. Everything I thought about myself depended on what he thought of me. The only joy I felt was when he was with me and when he wasn't my life was on hold. Often I got depressed and felt suicidal :(
I had to realize that people are human and they will let you down. They won't always say what you want or need to hear nor behave just the way you want them to. Although I am loyal, dedicated, and would not betray my partner... he is not me, he has not had my experiences, and may make mistakes.
I had to learn is to trust MYSELF enough to be able to handle whatever comes my way. Now I feel that I have the confidence to trust that I can deal with anything. To realize too that no matter what other people do, I'm a strong person and will get through anything.
This opened up a path of enlightment allowing me to feel joy again. :D
What is in your way?
:)
Nope.
I need my routine and plans because my brain destroys itself without structure, I may be 23 but realistically I could die in five minutes so shit, and all in all, everything is always changing and what's available today won't be tomorrow.
*smacks self into reality*
I have a hard time trusting happiness because I know that this, too, shall pass. I have even caught myself facilitating the fall in silly hopes of being able to control it. These days I am working on replacing my trust and control issues with simple appreciation and acceptance. I am not the divinely appointed judge of good and bad.
It's an expression here
i paralyse myself with what if's in a negative way it stops me from moving on