Bless you sweetie.. I am very happy to see it hasn't come back... Im sorry you're in a dark place right now..
I hope it passes soon... Sending you a great big hug..x

I dont dare admit this to anyone that is not part of this group because they would say I was sick in the head. I am so tired of dealing with bipolar and all of the other medical problems I have. Im exhausted. I wiish this fd up cancer would have taken me out five years ago to be brutally honest. I am really having a hard time. Thank you for letting me share..

Ty Sun

sorry you feel this way, what you're going through sounds really rough.

can you reach out to a new group you hadn't thought of, or tell someone close to you.

honesty can be the best thing, sometimes. even when you thought it wouldn't be.

I suspect deep down you truly want to live. You've been fighting!

My sister is bipolar and is at the hospital, today actually, getting radiation for her cancer... she struggles with it too, but we had a father who committed suicide when we were kids and she doesn't want my nephew to suffer from the loss of a parent.

Do you have children, or a family?

Hugs to you, I think it's wonderful you've beaten cancer! You have a strong will :)

I am so messed up right now. The only time I feel half alive is when im swimming laps at the pool. The rest of the time I feel like crying. But I dont. I get up and go to my job. I also feel so alone. ,i hate myself

I am single. No kids. During my cancer surgery I had to have a gysterectomy. My family is unsupportive and very toxic.

Ephe.....im aorry about ur sister!!!! I will keep her in my prayers!!! Why do we get cancer AND mental illness??? Soooo unfair.

Thank you sweetie :)

I'm so sorry your family is unsupportive. Do you have any pets? If not, would you ever consider it?

I would love to have a dog, but im not allowed where i live :(

perhaps you are afraid of getting better?

Who knows why but it seems that human nature is to fear change, and being cancer free is a change for you.

But I will say this, death or no death, cancer is often a very painful and unpleasant way to go. It can also be very slow as well. I wouldn't wish it on any one so don't wish it on your self.

Maybe it's time to make other changes as well in life. You realize you are disappointed and that is fine because that was your true feeling but now it's time to decide what you will do next. You have some time to think about that now. Who knows what the future will bring. Perhaps you are meant to follow your dream now. You've been given a second chance don't wast it. Not every one gets one.

Even if you don't feel grateful now you still have an opportunity to change your mind later.

but that's just my advice. Take it for what it's worth...
free.

i have been known to get a fish and plants before, when i can't have a pet.

pretty pictures and art help too.


sometimes i paint a wall. you can always paint over it again with white or whatever color is up, so that it's seamless when your landlord gets the place back if you move.


do something different. try something new.
enjoy life because you are here,
and this is all there is.