Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
So I just found out that a friend of mine un-friended me on Facebook. She was concerned about my potential reaction to her recent posts. She thought they would trigger a worse depression or possible self injury. I got very upset about this. That reasoning got me angry and hurt. Yes I know its only Facebook but to assume I would react a certain way I thought wasn't giving me any credit to prove that I can handle whatever she posts. I feel like my unpredictable and unstable moods have caused people around me to censor what they do and say. That doesn't make me feel very good. I did find out what these posts are and sadly she was right, I would have let them get to me. Its probably because they are posts by my ex-girlfriend about her new relationship, and I'm still not totally over her. whether I see it of just know about it its still tough to handle and my emotions totally took me off guard. Thats a scary feeling. Its hard to admit but its probably best she did what she did. I know I shouldn't be but I'm still really upset by the whole thing.
One day, I realized - they Know what depression is, and how it looks on me. I imagine, explaining it over and over, is wanting "Understanding", and that is a natural human emotion - but I was being very selfish, always talking about my moods, what triggers me and Sorry.... I decided to TRY and quit explain my brain issues, and try more to UNDERSTAND how difficult it is to be my friend, how frustration my unstable, unreliable, canceling, stuck, unmotivated actions were to them...
Really, how hard it is to want to help someone and Can't - so, when pissed at friends, I take a deep breath and try and understand their frustrations, and that they are doing their best too!!!!!!
Now, I love my friend and let them know how I'm doing - but if I want to talk about depression for 30 minutes, I come on here or pick up the phone and talk with another person in a support setting and give my friends a break - while getting more support from my peers....
Well, that's my story - LOL and I"m sticking to it : )