Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I hit that rock bottom.
I admitted myself (for the first time) into a nhs psych hosp....and within the day discharged myself, I paniced, it was new...
I stayed at my grandparents who live down the road from hubby and daughter and then asked the crisis team to readmit me. This never happened.
I ended up taking an od (which wasn't a suicide attempt, I couldn't find blades) and in an amu for 3 days in a bad way. But what I do remember is 1. My grandparents being REALLY REALLY angry at me (calling me names and actually being nasty) when I told them I'd done it (they've never been nasty like that ever) and 2. The nurses physically hurting me. Like, pressing down hard on my collar bone and squeezing behind the left side of my collar bone and shoulder blade area. Now I don't have bruises but it's still very sore there. I have a bruise on my hip. Like, is hurting patients a way if trying to keep them awake or something? Or was this something else... I went in Monday came out Wednesday and it's pretty fresh in my mind still and all rather confusing....
I admitted myself (for the first time) into a nhs psych hosp....and within the day discharged myself, I paniced, it was new...
I stayed at my grandparents who live down the road from hubby and daughter and then asked the crisis team to readmit me. This never happened.
I ended up taking an od (which wasn't a suicide attempt, I couldn't find blades) and in an amu for 3 days in a bad way. But what I do remember is 1. My grandparents being REALLY REALLY angry at me (calling me names and actually being nasty) when I told them I'd done it (they've never been nasty like that ever) and 2. The nurses physically hurting me. Like, pressing down hard on my collar bone and squeezing behind the left side of my collar bone and shoulder blade area. Now I don't have bruises but it's still very sore there. I have a bruise on my hip. Like, is hurting patients a way if trying to keep them awake or something? Or was this something else... I went in Monday came out Wednesday and it's pretty fresh in my mind still and all rather confusing....
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
BUT...I have experienced people being extremely angry at me, including pdocs, over my suicide attempts. It's almost like they take it personal. It's my life, it's my choice. That's how I look at it.
However, I think suicide threatens people and what they believe in.
It's like a big slap in society's face. I don't agree w/it but that's how it seems to me.
Just take care of YOU...whatever you have to do. Don't worry about people's reactions. They're not suffering like you are.
Regarding people getting mad... Anger is a secondary emotion.. I think they are frustrated and fear for us and themselves.... I have certainly felt suicidal many times however I've taken it off of the table as an option mostly due to the effect it has on those that I've cared about... I try to put myself in their shoes ... We want people to empathize with us so I think it's important that we also empathize with them
If I feel suicidal or am in a depression that I can't get out of I know it's time that I seek medical help and medical help with be there for you Dannie if you want it
Re squeezing your shoulders/collar bone... It sounds like they're squeezing your pressure points.. Military does that to hurt someone and keep them down... If that's what they did this hospital needs to be reported.. This is terrible... Big hug for you...x
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pressure_point
I wondered if the nurses were using pain as a way to keep me awake...which didn't work by the way... But I have fibromyalgia so I remember it being extremely painful
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