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ok so i binged again. it was 10pm in the evening here and i still am awake. Feeling guilty and remorseful, i know that as a BP, it is a mortal sin to push down oneself especially in times like this. but the illness itself is the one bringing me down. Or rahter should i say im letting it bring me all down. My weight is a huge deal for me, i have upsetting thoughts about it. Believe me i tried but everyday, i regress and slip into square one. I realized that food is my number one source of strength when im upset or sad or depressed about things. Early this morning i went ot starbucks, ate chicken sandwich, ate two cassava slices (rice cake). Then i headed to the gym. Afte that when i got home, i ate again. That was 3pm. Then i had a small snack by 5pm . Then I ate dinner twice. My pdoc told me that weight gain due to increase appetite can be expected from zyprexia. When she prescribed me that med i told myself who cares about the weight gain! I needed to be cured, emotionally first. I am going to her tomorrow to discuss this things.
I know that beauty is also feeling good about one self on the insde and outside. But now as u can see, i am a failure to both. I cant feel good because of the blame and lack of discipline.
The most painful part is the failing part, then rising up, the failing and regressing again to square one. mabe my problem is that i cant sustain a positive attitude about weight loss and about this whole thing. I am not dedicated enough, not being able to accept the things that i must do in order to achieve it! DO I HAVE TO TRY HARDER? bECAUSE WHEN I try to discipline myself not to eat, i felt like a huge pang of anxiety is swirling all over me.Too much suffering
does anybody experienced this?
any advice?
I know that beauty is also feeling good about one self on the insde and outside. But now as u can see, i am a failure to both. I cant feel good because of the blame and lack of discipline.
The most painful part is the failing part, then rising up, the failing and regressing again to square one. mabe my problem is that i cant sustain a positive attitude about weight loss and about this whole thing. I am not dedicated enough, not being able to accept the things that i must do in order to achieve it! DO I HAVE TO TRY HARDER? bECAUSE WHEN I try to discipline myself not to eat, i felt like a huge pang of anxiety is swirling all over me.Too much suffering
does anybody experienced this?
any advice?
back when i couldn't sleep, i would stay up and eat nachos until like 5 am. i gained a ton of weight because i could not stop eating.
it was really bad because i used to be tiny.
i tried not snacking and not eating after 9 pm, but that was like hell.
i was always always hungry.
i'm finally starting to lose weight after hating myself for 2 years. that's mainly because i got off the depakote which was what made me so hungry and now i'm on yaz and i can barely eat anything. i don't really know what to say though except that that happened to me. i was just lucky to get off of the depakote and be able to start losing weight.
but don't hate yourself because of it, because besides making good choices of what to eat, there isn't much you can do unless you get off the medicine.
but you can eat tons of fruits and vegetables.
it's plum season. haha i love plums.
My main thing is the lack of motivation or self discipline in exercising. I don't eat too well, but I don't eat very much so I'm sure I'd be pretty good if I could just get myself to get out of this velcro chair and go get active. But I keep myself out of trouble when manic by writing and writing and writing and writing... and then when I'm down I just sit around goofing off on the internet and watching movies; which I can't even finish because my attention wears so thin in that state.
So I'm stuck with this gut I got when I was on my last meds which doesn't go away because I sit around drinking and doing nothing. I used to have a six pack, but now I've got a keg. But I just bought a book on body-wieght work outs (I hate going to gyms) and bought a pull-up bar and installed it in my door frame. Hopefully once I get back on meds and pull out of this funk I'll be able to get back into the joys of exercise; feeling nice and full of endorphins and like a sexy beast ;-)
here's to dreaming!
But I'm a man with a vision now. Back to the six pack of yesteryear! I need to go find a new girl. I've already got the fact that I'm crazy working against me; I'd better at least have a good bod and the endurance to be a killer in the sack hahah.
I also use gum and/or prizzles and occassional pop corn to cause myself to feel full and so that my brain feels like I had ate when I chew gum. A 8oz bag of wal mart prizzle is only 1.500 cals per bag.
Your Dr can change your med to non weight gain med and she/he can also prescibe fat flush med. med that rids body of fat. yep if you eat fat you will poop fat out - it prevents your body from absorbing the fat.
I gained 20ty lbs strickly due to 1 of my meds but it is so hard to maintain this weight level w/o gaining. I miss french fries and pizza and chesse sticks and deep fried battered vegs.
For 1.5 yrs I have been trying to lose 10 of 20 lbs to no avail. My Dr and his staff are well over weight so my request for food craveing surpressant med - will apparently they feel that its healthy for them to be 80 to 100 lbs over weight and anything less than 100 lbs over weight is not a problem.
I just came bk from vacation and yesterday I went to put on pair of jeans that I wore befor vacation but theres no way I could get the ziper together to try to zip them :(
darn those cookies and fudge cake followed me home.
My sister had lipo band surgery and has lost little over 100 lbs. her weight gain was strickly caused by her medication.
1st yr was hell for her and 2nd yr she began doing better w the band and now she able to eat w/o throwing up and gagging on her food.
Today grocery shopping day and I so want to pig out but instead Ill have veg sub and fresh fruit and of course trail mix.
I use corn flakes as liken to potato chips.
Again have your Dr to change your med to same type of med.
Am grateful that my children are grown and I dont half to cook and sample everything I use to cook for them - which didnt effect my weight then but am oon meds now.
Oh man I just scanned read #1 reply. Nachos is my weakness, oh gosh am going shopping today and I know Ill be thinking about refried beans, sause, cheese, peppers, onions, corn chips, darn it :(