paralyzing fear sucks. go easy on yourself.

can you try again for another class? are there any online instructionals you can check out? maybe you can learn online and stay home..

I feel for you. I get that way myself.

They won't offer any til next year more than likely.......I feel like bashing my fn sewing machine and burning the fabric I bought.....and setting a match to the house right now wouldn't bother me in the least either.....and I mean that wholeheartedly and tired of this life.......

Tats, that stinks for you and I know it can be so discouraging to plan something and then not be able to follow through with it. Especially something you really look forward to doing. I think any time we have not done something in a whileor gone out around others by outselves in a while, we become paralyzed with fear.

At least you got as far as you did. You put the work in to try to get out the door and you found something that interested you enough that you "wanted" to get out the door.

Now isn't the time to give up. Now is the time to try again. Each time you try, you will become a little bit stronger and once you do get out the door you will be encouraged to do even more.

Sometimes it helps me to have a friend go along with me to things that make me anxious. Sunday, I asked my 20 y/o to go to the grocery with me so I would not feel so anxious. It did help.

Sometimes even though we are thinking good things and doing the mental work, we still freeze up. We have those unconscious thoughts that tell us "people will be looking", "I won't be able to do it", "what if". It takes time and work and constant trying to get there but when we do, it feels sooooooo good. Don't let this be the end, but the beginning. It was a practice run toward the time you will succeed to get out the door and be around people again.

Hang in there Tats, you are a beautiful person, you ARE here for a reason, and you WILL succeed in steppting forward.....xo

Tats, can you take a prn and still make it to your class. I do this same thing - but I am okay once I get there.

I'm sorry, Tats.

I took 5 klonopin yesterday trying to help stay calm Magic and I have no friends that can help me right now.....you guys are it.

I have extras I guess I can take 5 more today and see what happens.....I feel like taking the entire bottle....sigh

I really do not think I am meant to be in this life.....I really do not.

Okay, Tats!!!

Give yourself permission to be excused from sewing lessons today. Do something else - something relaxing. Or do nothing at all.

If you feel like it later, maybe you could look online for some sewing videos.

Be kind to my Tats friend - give her a break.

i'm sorry you're struggling tats.

i completely understand how you feel, and all i can think to say is don't beat yourself up over a sewing class. it might be a wait, but there will be other sewing classes you'll be able to attend.

it really does happen to the best of us. please be gentle with yourself.

Thanks everyone for the support......I appreciate it AND I think I'm going to make it.....

I got some much needed support from Will and he is going to drive down to the class with me, it's in an area that has alot of stores and neat shops so he's going to walk around and maybe grab a bite to eat while I go to class!!!!! I have to push myself outside my comfort zone here and do this......I just have too....cannot stand feeling so miserable about not going. The klonopin has helped too...I just took one and am feeling less anxious.

I remember being told how important it is to push outside that comfort zone that we all have......and though it's a huge push I think I will be ok!!!! Just talking alot to myself with positive affirmations and telling myself that this will be fun....not punishment!

tats, that sounds fun.. now i want to go to a class. i love checking out neat shops. once when i was convinced my ex was human, i got a surprise trip to some shops, it was the best date ever. i truly felt loved. oh, you should have so much fun..

Oh, I am soooo glad. And you will be too. That is great of Will to support you.

Bless us all and pass the Klonopin.

Girl, I Have been there before more times than I can count. Hang in there baby and don't give up. I like the idea someone said about finding it online. Try YouTube. Do what you can to take care of yourself and the rest will come together. OH! I hate to see you hurting. It kills me. Please hang in there sweetie

This posting helped me in an unexpected way! I don't have bipolar, so it's sometimes difficult for me to understand. I'm a college instructor and sometimes I have students who just disappear from class. Because I teach public speaking, which creates a lot of anxiety for some people, I call student who disappear and ask them to come back to class. I called a student recently and she told me that she just can't come back. I wonder if she was going through something similar?

Yayyyyyyy!!!! I'm glad you're going to be able to make it after all, tats!!! And I hope you have a great experience, so that it will be much easier the next time!!!!!

Blech. There's so many things that I would like to do, but my anxiety holds me back!!!

I'm getting a little bit better, lately. I still don't go out for 'fun', but I'm feeling a bit more at ease with doing the things I HAVE to do!!

Good luck!!!! I hope you love it!!! You're being very brave and doing something really good for yourself, in more ways than one!!! (((((Hugs)))))