Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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ladybug2008 09/27/2008

I already know the answer. Of course I shouldn't. Marriage of 17 years - never unfaithful. Suffered from depression mostly. When I was younger- in college promiscuous and intense intense relationship, which I still mourn for. I think if I had know that if I had knownthat I was bi-polar we would have had a chance. When I was manicky from Prozac with Post -Partum depression. He finally put a stop to the e-mails. Anyway. I have met someone, a patient of mine. I keep thinking when he is no longer my patient of having a fling. We joke in a suggestive kind of way and have become chums. I listen and keep his messages on my voice mails. I love his voice. He is the type of person that I would have went for in my more fun, wild days. I'm bored, not manicky. Feel good at this point. My Lamictal was increased a few weeks ago. I just don't feel depressed anymore. I want to have fun.

deleted_user 09/27/2008

I UNDERSTAND HOW YOU ARE FEELING.. I AM VERY HAPPY WITH MY HUBBY BUT I STILL FIND MYSELF TALKING TO AND WANTING TO SEE MY EX.. IT'S A VERY TRICKY SITUATION THAT YOU ARE IN SO PLEASE THINK LONG AND HARD BEFORE YOU ACT ON ANYTHING.. I KNOW I DIDN'T GIVE YOU ANY ANSWER, I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU NOT ALONE...

deleted_user 09/27/2008

Then again, cheating is about the worst thing you can do to someone who loves you. I would beg you not to hurt someone this way. If you aren't happy in your marriage, I would think it would be better to end it than to do that to your spouse. That said, I can at least understand the boredom. I have a much less intense relationship than those I had when younger, too. But I chose this relationship because my husband is devoted, loving, handsome and kind. These things are far more important to me in the long run than passion. I have had a situation where there was another man (my es-husband actually) who tempted me, but ultimately I realized that my boredom was a result of my own dissatisfaction with my own life, and that changing who I sleep with wouldn't help in the end.

cb72 09/28/2008

If you're really attracted to your PATIENT, you're considering a fling, and you listen to his voicemails, then you are getting manic, and you are not bored. BTW, if this is going on, you should do both of you a favor and stop seeing him as a patient. It's the ethical thing to do.

deleted_user 09/28/2008

Speaking from experience, it hurts the other person. Don't get me wrong, I did not actually have relations with him, but did go to his house. Then, I lied to my husband about where I was, he found out of course and I spilled my guts.

Dr. Chapman wrote this book called The Five Love Languages that says in a marriage sometimes our love tanks get empty and we want to have that in love feeling. Where, if we took a step back and realized that all we had to do was try to fill our spouses love language and they caught on and filled ours, that we can fall back in love with our spouse. Read his book before you persue and yes, definitely give him up. He is just filling up your love tank that your spouse very well can do if you give it a try.

And, you also may be experiencing low dosage of mania. Watch that! Good luck, B

jeansmind 09/28/2008

I agree with CB72...

deleted_user 09/28/2008

oh please.. god no.. don't do it. If you love your SO you wouldn't do it.. you're risking throwing everything away (and honestly, if you cheat, there's no reason your SO even SHOULD stay with you) oh a psychological level, being cheated on is the equivalent to losing a loved one like a parent. Think about how much pain you'd be inflicting. My husband cheated on me and I tried to kill myself. Now, I will never believe my husband when he says "i love you" again. You can blame the URGE to cheat on your bipolar, but if you go through with it then it's your choice and you are 100% fully responsible.

deleted_user 09/29/2008

Allsways stay freinds once you cross the line it becomes somthing that will only hurt you in the end.and worst of all the freindship changes to something bad instead of beautifull.

kathy1962 09/29/2008

Have you been honest with your spouse and discussed your desires for a "fling"? You might be surprised if you open it up for discussion. Lots of people are not in monogamous relationships, but that means the other person has that freedom too. Just a no-strings sex act, if above board and not done in a deceptive way, would be a stupid thing to breakup over, don't ya think?

deleted_user 09/29/2008

don't do it. Karma is a shitty thing sometimes. I don't know what I did, but now I can't cum any more because of meds I was put on very recently. I traded stability and harmony in the home for the delicious release of endorphins that comes from climax. I can go and go and go and go an go. Just can't finish. What if Karma decided to do that tou you?

Shelly4 09/29/2008

Honestly, I think if you wanted approval, you certainly wouldnt be posting it here. I think you are hoping to be talked out of it. I agree with several points.

1. You should talk to your partner about your feelings and emotions on this subject.
2. You should not cheat on him.
3. You should stop seeing your patient professionally.
4. Seriously evaluate where these feelings are coming from....true emotion or chemical.

I also agree that you can blame the urge on bipolar disorder but any choice you make, any behavior that stems from the urge is ultimately your responsibility. You cannot say later.........."Oh, I am bipolar so I messed up". If you mess up it is because you are selfish and dont care what the consequences are. Blessings on this journey, many lessons will be learned from it. Hugs

ladybug2008 09/29/2008

I know it would be selfish. It is a very physical attraction, but I don't allow myself to feel this way. I keep a wall up. He is my patient but for only a few more weeks. I do know better. I don't want a relationship with this person-we would kill each other. HA. Sex would be awesome though. I haven't felt this way in forever. I don't feel manicky I feel as normal as I have in awhile. I don't blame it on Bipolar. I haven't wanted anything this selfish in a long time. I have had a lot of depression and so has this person. He understands me better than my husband of years. He has a ton of problems and we laugh about who is more screwed up. My husband is a good person and loyal. I have 3 kids. Maybe I'm having my midlife crisis. I am 41 and there won't be many more of these instances. I'm having my midlife crisis I guess.

deleted_user 09/30/2008

It is so not worth it. A fling has no promises...freedom to enjoy and walk away.(And they will.)what you have done will haunt you and hurt you in the end. It steals your self respect. And before yopu know it...you may grow to resent the "LOVER." No joke...been there...got the t-shirt.

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