A couple days ago, I was feeling extremely depressed to the point of wanting to self injure again. I wrote on here and I appreciate those that had such nice things to say and helped me. I took my meds and went to bed that night and woke up ok. Then I had to deal with my Friday work day which ended up just making me very angry. I wasn't trying to show that I was breaking on the inside but to my co workers (who were feeling some annoyance too at the situation) could tell that I was pretty angry. This bothers me because I want to be seen as calm and collected at work. I don't want anyone thinking I am unstable, I am trying to work my way up right now.
Today I do not work so I can pretty much do whatever I want to do. I have no idea what to do with myself besides wasting time on tv or internet or simply staying in bed. It is so frustrating that I have no motivation to do anything. I am still not out of that deep depression yet and this snow today is not helping my mood. I want it to be spring. Right now I am feeling angry and very depressed. I feel worthless and I keep wanting to cry.