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I'll try to keep things a little bit brief, for the sake of being not-too-cryptic as my unedited ramble-ish writings can sometimes be.
I did go to my psych clinic. I did ask about alcohol/drug abuse groups/meetings (presumably dual-diagnosis since this IS a psych clinic after all). You have to make an appointment with a counselor to ask to be a part of the groups? I have no idea lol. Doesn't make much sense to me. It might also mean mandatory attendance, I'm not sure.
But I had an appointment that I'd forgotten about in mid-March, so i guess it all works out in the end.
Right now I'm detoxing. I hurt. I feel tired and ill. But it's a start. And I'm going to go to NA meetings every day (if I can) as soon as I'm able before I'm ehhh.... able to get my hands on more of my supply, so that I can have a better chance at cutting back or abstaining.
I feel like that if I ease myself into sobriety, I'll have much, much better odds of success than I would with traditional "abstinence" rehab. I feel the way about "straight-edge" culture and "abstinence-only" traditional rehab the way I feel about The War On Drugs and the way Madalyn Murray O'Hair felt about Christianity, lol. (Although I respect and admire all of the staff of the rehab I went to in 2014.)
At some point during my usual couple weeks of detox when I run myself out way early every time like a stupid fucknut, I begin to feel LOADS better.
And I want to view that, this time, as a golden, nay, invaluable window of opportunity for my sobriety, whether relative or total.
I've realized that my addiction plays a bigger role in my disability than I previously thought, and so I feel that I will continue to go nowhere in life unless I treat the problem, and it's what I intend to do.
Also I'm hoping to cautiously re-enter my former loosely Pagan/Wiccan beliefs, although it conflicts with my militant atheism and LaVeyanism like pouring oil into water.
It's given me strength before, it might could again. This comes from that, while I acknowledge that some people are able to live by simple, kind, and generous virtues, that will not be strong enough of an anchor for me to hold on to in order to recover from my addiction, mental illness, and physical illness all at the same time.
In good news, my hair's sorted out! It was worse than I thought, though. Over the course of about 2 hours and almost an entire jar of coconut oil, I yanked out what feels like close to half of it, but luckily there are not any bald spots, it just feels thinner, to me.
And I went on birth control pills, and they've improved my energy levels quite a lot, at least until my withdrawals started to kick. But that will improve soon enough.
You have to have a vigorous spirit to get through something so seemingly hopeless and taxing, and I feel like underneath all of this, that's what I have.
-Severin
P.s. how's everyone?
I did go to my psych clinic. I did ask about alcohol/drug abuse groups/meetings (presumably dual-diagnosis since this IS a psych clinic after all). You have to make an appointment with a counselor to ask to be a part of the groups? I have no idea lol. Doesn't make much sense to me. It might also mean mandatory attendance, I'm not sure.
But I had an appointment that I'd forgotten about in mid-March, so i guess it all works out in the end.
Right now I'm detoxing. I hurt. I feel tired and ill. But it's a start. And I'm going to go to NA meetings every day (if I can) as soon as I'm able before I'm ehhh.... able to get my hands on more of my supply, so that I can have a better chance at cutting back or abstaining.
I feel like that if I ease myself into sobriety, I'll have much, much better odds of success than I would with traditional "abstinence" rehab. I feel the way about "straight-edge" culture and "abstinence-only" traditional rehab the way I feel about The War On Drugs and the way Madalyn Murray O'Hair felt about Christianity, lol. (Although I respect and admire all of the staff of the rehab I went to in 2014.)
At some point during my usual couple weeks of detox when I run myself out way early every time like a stupid fucknut, I begin to feel LOADS better.
And I want to view that, this time, as a golden, nay, invaluable window of opportunity for my sobriety, whether relative or total.
I've realized that my addiction plays a bigger role in my disability than I previously thought, and so I feel that I will continue to go nowhere in life unless I treat the problem, and it's what I intend to do.
Also I'm hoping to cautiously re-enter my former loosely Pagan/Wiccan beliefs, although it conflicts with my militant atheism and LaVeyanism like pouring oil into water.
It's given me strength before, it might could again. This comes from that, while I acknowledge that some people are able to live by simple, kind, and generous virtues, that will not be strong enough of an anchor for me to hold on to in order to recover from my addiction, mental illness, and physical illness all at the same time.
In good news, my hair's sorted out! It was worse than I thought, though. Over the course of about 2 hours and almost an entire jar of coconut oil, I yanked out what feels like close to half of it, but luckily there are not any bald spots, it just feels thinner, to me.
And I went on birth control pills, and they've improved my energy levels quite a lot, at least until my withdrawals started to kick. But that will improve soon enough.
You have to have a vigorous spirit to get through something so seemingly hopeless and taxing, and I feel like underneath all of this, that's what I have.
-Severin
P.s. how's everyone?
tommymott
I wish you perseverance and unqualified success, along with vibrant health.
irishwriter
i wish you all the best with these days and hope all goes well for you. i am glad you got your hair sorted with no bald spots! one light in it all. i also hope you find the meetings that are the right fit for you. it can be hit and miss sometimes but the right ones are out there with the right combination of people who will aid you on your particular journey even the people on here that you meet. hugs for you to put in your bag for when needed.
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